But if I have to exercise, like on Friday when I helped out with the NTU-NIE Speech Competition in school, I can feel the difference. I feel less sleepy and things look brighter.
On the other hand, during those days when I don't exercise at all, the bed feels so comfy... Zzzzzzzzzz...
I'll admit that girls who are crying holds a certain attraction to me, some sort of desire to protect the weak. Just now I was watching a short video of this girl who was crying on Youtube because of some major cyber bullying. Anonymous strikes again. Despite her heartwrenching performance, comments were mostly negative, like "I bet she can't beat Cho's highscore," referring to the Korean guy in the VTech Massacre.
I couldn't stop watching, partly because I wanted to see how emo girls are emo.
But I can't see myself getting attached to a weak, insecured girl who "needs protection". Heck, I couldn't even stand my own bro who wanted to play with me all the time when we were younger. I dislike anyone who clings to me, anyone who needs to depend on me all the time. I don't need your troubles - I've got enough of my own as it is. Just because I do not discuss them doesn't mean I have a carefree life full of hope and pretty flowers.
Anyway, while I was watching the Youtube vid, I had some mixed feelings about it.
First, poor girl. She didn't seem ugly, more like average. I'd give her a 5-6 out of 10 for her face, which was all I could see (makeup made me minus a few points because I'm more interested in the original look). But apparently she had been called fugly and stuff by hundreds of people, though my guess is they were just some guys from 4chan /b/ on several proxies.
Second, I bet she can't beat Cho's highscore. Yea, fuck me. Whatever. I don't care if she snaps and brings a gun to school like she said she might. It's not like she's going to be unique anyway and all it would do is give /b/ another joke to laugh at for a couple days. And maybe a new meme.
Third, attention whore. Cry to your friends! Or... do you even have friends?
Fifth, this demonstrates something a friend of mine once said. He had theorised that the price of living in a developed country is the loss of purpose in life. It makes sense - if you have all you need, all you can do is want things you don't need which in the end really doesn't make sense. This is why you see those people going for "spiritual" stuff, those students who don't know what they want to do with their lives and those delinquents who kill and rape without remorse. They don't have anything to work towards and have no idea what to do to feel alive.
Compare this with people who live in the slums of India. All they can think of is to live another day and make some money for their families. They have a purpose - to succeed in life, and they have some serious motivation because of the poor conditions of their lives. They don't have people who commit crimes just because they have nothing better to do. They don't have people who kill because they were teased in school. They go for religions in hope of some blessings and not to be "enlightened" (well it'd be a bonus but it's not the main reason). Of course, they still have their share of delinquents because some people are just born to be sh*t no matter where you are.
Sixth, I sense thick makeup which implies a great amount of insecurity. Blegh!
Seventh, the sobbing tugs something in my conscience and my heart. Easily ignored but noticeable. Everyday I learn something new about myself.
It's interesting to see what your computer is doing when you have F@h on. I just found out my comp has been helping in the research on how viruses infect cells.
Project 2611:
These projects study how viruses infect cells. We are studying the viral proteins responsible for infection and how they interact with cell membranes.
How to do it:
1) Right click on the F@h tray icon on the start bar (assuming you're already running the client)
2) Go to Status, then click on Queue Info
3) Note Project number
4) Go to the F@h website, then click on Stats tab and choose Project Descriptions.
5) It will ask for a Project Number. Simply type yours in.
Wonder what lu3 zhi5 is called in English. I was only able to find a few answers from unreliable sources and they were "braised sauce" and just "gravy". Unsatisfactory.
Last year prices for everything was rising, including food. This year, companies are trying to hold on to these increments as the recession shrinks everybody's budgets. This is going to be an interesting thing to watch because they can't lower their prices much.
But various supermarkets are going to fully utilize their cheaper private brands (if they have any) and this strategy is going to give the food companies some major competition from the major supermarket chains.
Cheaper brands like No Frills (in Sg) are going to win over the more expensive brands. No Frills sells almost everything, while using the simplest packaging and offering the most inferior (but barely acceptable) quality for its products. For example, it sells the largest and most economical sliced bread loaves I've ever seen in supermarkets, but it's also one of the blandest breads I've ever tasted. Fills the stomach, but no more than that.
At least its products are clean and its food edible. No bugs, hair or whatever gross stuff within.
Recently found this Japanese AV video that was entitled "Slow Sex" (product code STAR 143), published by this brand called SOD. A 2-hour-long movie, it was made with a very different style from the usual run-of-the-mill porn. The reason it was called slow sex was because the couple had one long intercourse for almost 2 hours (about 1h 50min).
I was stunned when I realized it was a single marathon instead of 3-4 quick ones like the other JAVs. I thought that even real sex last only an hour at most!
In the first 3 mins, the introduction showed the male actor in some sort of sex class. Basically he was having sex with another girl, in the presence of this old dude who was watching him and giving instructions on where his hands should go and etc.
Guys should learn these techniques. I think this is what they meant by being a good lover.
It wasn't like porn, but more of an educational video. The style was totally different. For one, the actor didn't just go straight to the breasts, vagina before humping the hell out of her. He kissed her gently, then slid his hands down to her feet, calves and etc. In porn, I have never seen any guy bothered with the whole leg, only the feet, toes and the inner thighs.
I think I learnt something there. What he was doing was similar to what I read in this sex guide book a friend brought to school during my secondary school days, which was probably his first lesson on sex from his father. The actor didn't go right to cunnilingus, but instead took his time to stroke her inner thighs and just about everywhere around her vagina, followed by playing with her pubic hair a while before actually going for the clitoris.
I'm guessing that guys are supposed to learn this from their fathers. But for anyone who aren't getting this sort of education, this video might as serve as a good guide. Learn and fap at the same time. Unfortunately because of certain Japanese pornography laws, the genitals are censored, preventing viewers from learning the finer details of cunnilingus and fellatio.
Oh well, couples can always search for the same classes the actor took before performing in this video. Reading about it is never as good as watching a demonstration.
KFC, known for its heavy use of low-cost tiny set meals, is diving for a new low. Just saw this latest flyer from KFC promoting its latest puny sets like Snackers and Ultimate Value Box. Actually, the Ultimate Value Box seems to be more economical than the old Feast meals.
At $5.80 each, the Box contains a piece of chicken, a burger, a regular whipped potato and a can of Pepsi. 4 of them will cost $23.20.
At $24.90, the Family Feast A gives 8 pieces of chicken, a regular popcorn chicken, a medium coleslaw, a medium whipped potato and 6 shrimp coins.
Personally I hate their popcorn chicken. So 4 tiny burgers and 4 pieces of chicken are worth the same to me as 8 pieces of chicken and the popcorn chicken.
I always ask for the coleslaw to be changed to a whipped potato. 2 medium whipped potatoes are the same as 4 small ones, except the 4 small cups are made from more plastic than 2 medium cups. Makes them less green.
Finally 6 shrimp coins versus 4 cans of Pepsi. No-brainer there. Or if you like popcorn chicken, compare 6 shrimp coins and the regular popcorn chicken with 4 cans of Pepsi.
If I want, I can throw in an additional Snacker at $2.90 for 4 pieces of winglets (or a fifth drumstick) and some fries, which would raise the price to $26.10, $1.20 more than Feast A.
By the way, these Winglets are really the middle section of the chicken wing (the part with the 2 bones), but with the smaller bone removed. Quite convenient, really.I'm still trying to figure out how the ingenious de-boning machine works. Does it just tunnel with some sort of circular blade that cuts around that bone? It doesn't seem like that because the joints were cleanly removed too. I don't believe they used manual labour because raw tendons are very tough to tear apart.
Or maybe the chicken was cooked a little before workers removed the bones and joints manually.
Or maybe they do have some nifty gadget that magically does the work.
Interesting.
Josef Fritzl, the legendary Australian hero, is now being charged with murder (and many other things). One of his son/grandson (incest makes blood relations so hard to identify) had died many years ago because he didn't allow him to see a doctor. Later he was burnt in the furnace. I imagine it was a horrible experience for the whole family when they realized the burning corpse smells just like delicious BBQ meat.
Austria is amazing. I'll never live there.
Prince of Persia is going to be made into a movie, which is due May next year. Back when I was still using a 4MB computer from IPC, my bro and I played the first Prince of Persia game quite a bit. It was mostly him playing and me watching. I've never been good at games that require fast reflexes.
Then, it was a 2D platform game that was too hard for us. We took days to figure out how to get past the guards after jumping out of the window at the beginning and reach the jetty. Once we stepped onto the jetty, we see the ship that was leaving. At first, we thought the ship could not be reached but after many tries, we finally managed to cling onto the edge of the ship.
But we never made it pass the ship. Too hard.
Nostalgia aside, I expect PoP to be full of fights, because that is what it has always been about. It's kind of like Ninja Gaiden except in an Arab setting. But then again, it's being produced by Disney, which makes it likely to be a G-rated film. :(
The Punisher was a lousy movie. With the bad acting from many people and poor plot, I imagine it was aiming at American teenagers who're into gory stuff. I mean, it's FULL of gore. It's not that I can't stand it, but gore is rather pointless in any movie and shouldn't be seen by children. The blood and bloody explosions and point-blank-shotgun-in-the-face are nothing compared to what I see in 4chan everyday (you should see what you can create when you photoshop a lamprey's open mouth into a human eye socket), but seriously 4chan isn't meant for human eyes.
A Quantum of Solace was also another overrated film. Maybe it's because I'm not into normal fights and car chases, but the whole film seemed to me like it's only about cool Bond action and beautiful girls.
It may have been a great template for movies of the past, but I'm rather numb to this now. No surprise, nothing. Even Harry Potter movies are better films than the latest in the James Bond series.
So you're supposed to succeed in life by starting a family and having a successful career. At first, you want a wife. For that, you need a steady job and a new home. Then you want children. For that, you need a good steady income, learn to raise children, keep them safe, and many other things.
So many responsibilities.
What if you don't want them? What if I don't want a wife? What if I don't want children?
I won't need to have a new house, a good income and the need to do so many things to raise children.
Then what is the point of living?
Yes, what is the point of living?
To have a family and a career?
Really?
Then monks and nuns must be seriously misguided!
What is the point of living then?
Think again.
The question itself is wrong.
There is no point in living.
A better question can be raised.
What is your reason for living?
I live to conform.
I conform to live.
In conformity, there is strength.
What need do I have for strength?
What need do I have for a steady society?
What need do I have for a good career?
What need do I have?
A human's basic needs are: food, water, shelter and human interaction.
Anything not under these are a luxury.
Luxury is anything you don't need in order to live.
You don't need a car; you want a car.
We build so many desires over desires. At first, I want money. For that, I want a driver's license and a degree. For that, I want a good environment to study in. For that, I want to live a life that isn't a life for half the time.
Can I not want?
It is hard to want nothing.
It is against human nature.
I must want; it is written in my DNA.
A price for every gain, no more, no less.
I pay and I pay.
I work so that I can pay.
I pay so that I can work.
I work and I work.
Cancel these away and what do I get?
What is left?
From a womb of flesh to a womb of earth.
I did nothing.
Newton's 3rd Law: for every action there is a equal and opposite reaction.
The era of believing that something can be created out of nothing should be over. Not.
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