Rant 161 / Wouldn't You Agree?

That last rant really reeked of butthurt when I thought about it after posting. Perhaps it was more extreme than it should be. Perhaps it is worth the price. But then again, how many couples actually get to live together till a ripe old age?











Just something I made using http://www.wittycomics.com/make-comic.php which is a great website for a bored college student.




Atlantica Online iS DOWN TILL THE 25TH TENTATIVELY!!! OMFG!! ARGH!! DIE!!!!






First time cooking rice in hall. Not too bad. Only added too much water so it began to burn before it hardened. I prefer hard rice. Bleh. So I let cool for half an hour under the fan until it dried up a little before adding the HOLY JAPANESE CONDIMENTS OF STUNNING FLAVOURS.





Finally noticed how Coca-Cola doesn't bubble till you pour it into your mouth. It must be freaking sterile in there before I open it. And freaking smooth.





A beautful bitch is still a bitch. Once again someone proves me right. I guess no matter what, all people are born with just as many flaws, except that some have them mostly on the inside, while other have them equally on the outside and within. If only beautiful girls can be just as beautiful in their hearts. Ah, c'est la vie.

Rant 160 / I Believe In The Holocaust Denial Denial

Love is an urge. Being in a romantic relationship may be one of the happiest thing to happen in your life, but it is also like digging a pit at the future. Let's put it this way, when one is in a relationship, he digs, from a spot in the future, the soil to place it in the present to make him stand higher. He stands higher than the rest now, but sooner or later, he's going to have to fall into the deepest pit in his path - the one he dug from. And the longer he digs, the harder he falls. The pain will be unbearable within a decade of digging.

In chinese, one saying I've heard from an old advertisment was," Bu4 zhai4 hu1 tian1 chang2 di4 jiu3, zhi3 zhai2 hu1 cheng2 jing1 yong1 you3." It doesn't matter how long, as long as one has it before.

That is so not true and is merely something a person says after he has fallen into the pit. But those who aren't can still reverse the process. Stop digging deeper. It's just like abusing drugs. It feels fantastic now, but in the end, you're going to screw either yourself, your partner or both.

We are taught that this is something that is born in us, this instinct to mate. We are also taught that the Singaporean government is incorruptible too.

And it will not merely be pain in the end. It can drive you mad or, at the very least, change you forever. I know, I've witnessed this in real life before. Life will never be the same again for not just you, but also everyone around you after you've fallen into the pit.

It is sad how people in general are brainwashed from young to believe that they need a partner and a family. Things like TV, movies and just about every single romantic story you have ever come across are practically telling you to get a goddamned girlfriend/boyfriend in your teens and twenties.

But is it truly necessary?

Is it truly uncontrollable?

At some points in my life, I do find that I can think of nothing but that special someone. I may even dream of her. But the important thing is that after a day, it will wear off and I will become lucid again. Remaining lucid and sober is a very important thing in life.

To believe otherwise about love is to think with your heart. Your heart was never meant to think. It is not logical. It is about faith. You can believe all you want that love solves all problems, but the day this love ends is the day someone is getting seriously fucked.

But like all things in life, everyone makes his/her own decisions. This is just my opinion and I believe the price is too steep. I still want my freedom and I still want to remain the person I am today in the future. And I still want my sanity for the rest of my life.

Stay logical. Stay lucid. Get a fucking cold shower.

Rant 159 / M-m-m-m-m-m-m-MONSTER KILL!!!

Was in a taxi when I saw a piece of wood carved into the chinese character ren3, which means endure/tolerate. I thought it was an excellent concept to keep in mind when one is in the service industry. This led me back to the days when I was a receptionist-cum-security guard in the army. I had to endure many things that were not in my job description, including moronic staff who couldn't tell which column of blanks on the key registes were for their signatures even though they were all clearly labelled at the top.

One thought led to another, and eventually I recalled the time I did something funny to one of my seniors. The backstory was that he liked one of this female staff a lot but never had the guts to advance from the friend zone.

So one night he was opening the gate for her and two of her colleagues and waiting for the driver to come and bring them them down the hill. While they were waiting at the gate, I waited with my teammate at the receptionist counter( someone always has to be there). Both sides have a walkie-talkie each to communicate in case of any trouble.

So I waited for a few minutes and got impatient. It was supposed to be my rest shift after all and the driver was taking quite some time to get his car there. So I decided to talk to my friend down at the gate. As loud as I could while staying in a conversational tone, I said," Hey! What's taking so long? Stop chatting her up - she's too old for you!"

Unfortunately for him, and fortunately for me, he had turned his talkie's volume to maximum so that he won't miss anything while chatting with her. ROFLMAO!! After a few moments of anticipating an explosion, I got just that. He shouted via the talkie that he had turned the volume to max and she heard everything. It was very rude and what the hell was I doing?

I was laughing so hard I didn't bother to answer him. My other teammate next to me was laughing just as loudly while telling me I was as good as dead. I still smile whenever I think of this.

Sure enough, he stormed up after they left and gave me a big scolding, all because I embarassed him in front of his beloved. LOL! After he left, I thought it was very much worthed it. The hilarity far outweighed his anger.



OMFG the bandwidth in my hall is actually enough for me to play Atlantica Online decently! This is so amazing! Alas, there is a problem with my main, so I won't play till someone solves my problem. It is a technical issue, and I'm not surprised since this is Closed Beta. Oh well.




Heard that there is a new point-and-click action RPG with a sci-fi setting called Space Seige. Sounds like a good game, and my few glimpses at my bro's screen agrees with this. Will play it soon.

Rant 158 / What Is Olympics?

I've never seen Hitler this way, but has anyone thought about what obstacles he overcame and compare them with what he accomplished, with a neutral point of view?

I remember reading that Germany was forced to sign a very humiliating treaty after its involvement in WWI, forcing its people to live horribly. According to Wikipedia, they basically placed the blame for the war wholly on the German Empire. Its army, one of the greatest in Europe, was to be reduced to 100,000 men. And the amount of money to be paid by them caused hyperinflation in the Reichsmark. There are many others conditions, but I'll have to copy everything on the article if I describe them all.

Yet Hitler managed to make Germany into a superpower, with its army incredibly powerful and ingenious. How the fuck did he change Germany from a bankrupt nation into a country feared by all?

We never learnt all that! All we know now is that he had a Beyond God-like streak of 6M frags just among the Jewish populations alone. He was evil. He used propaganda. Yet no book I've ever come across ever described how he accomplished everything he did with what little he had to start with?

When I was young, I saw him as an evil dictator who caused great misery in the past.
When I was older, I saw him as the symbol of evil.
When I joined the Toastmasters Club, I saw him as one of the greatest speakers in history.
Now I see him as one of the greatest leaders ever born, with abilities that are, at least, on par with Peter the Great, Genghis Khan, Alexander the Great and many others. But then, he killed a lot of innocent people.

I admire him as a leader and opportunist. I just don't like his philosophy. There can't be anything wrong with that.









Atlantica Online may be one of the best MMORPGS I've ever played so far because of its gameplay. WoW is now the second best on my list and its there only because there are many players playing it, making its servers so very lively.

Atlantica Online is a turn-based MMORPG, kind of like Grandia in terms of combat, because you see the monsters walking around in the field. When you come into contact with one of them, the battle starts and you enter the combat screen.

In combat, your party will use Action Points to attack, move or whatever, just like most RPGs on consoles like PS2. The only difference is that I must complete all my actions in 30s, thus reducing the waiting time for the opponent when you're dueling with a human player.

I think I like this just because it has a turn-based combat system.

I'm still at lvl12 playing in the tutorial area where they teach me all the basic functions one by one. In fact, it takes Licenses to be able to do things like Sit and Search All corpses. So I have to wait till they're ready to teach me about each funtion before I can test them.

At lvl 12, I am able to have 4 mercenaries, increasing my party to 5 members. By lvl 50, I'll be able to have the maximum number of 8 or 9 mercenaries. How to control all of them in 30s I do not know. But I'll never hit lvl50.

This is because I'm playing AO Closed Beta 2, which means its presently in the 2nd phase of a Beta phase that allows only a limited number of players. There will be CB3 before Open Beta begins. And when it does, all accounts from CB3 will be erased.

CB3 begins on the 25th of August. CB2 ends tomorrow. So I won't be playing it like mad. It will be all gone anyway. But I'll be able to learn its systems before the actual game is out. Wonder if it will be free after OB.

Another great feature is its Automove function. It requires a License, but one License lasts 15 days of Automove. It decreases by the exact amount of time you spend Automoving down to the last second.





Never realized how some people can know so little about computers. Recently talked to another Toastmaster studying in NIE and found out that her IBM laptop costs a friggin 2.5k. Holy cow! It IS small, just like the Lenovo ones, but for 2.5k???

She doesn't play games and wanted it for its puny size and warranty. I agree that non-gamers need both of these, but I believe they can be found even in the 1.5k laptops.

So that's how they make money...

Rant 157 / Fatigue

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Rant 156 / Desire Is The Root Of All Evil, Not Money.

Watched Paprika. Good movie. Really creepy whenever reality suddenly turned out to be part of the dream. Never experienced something quite like that, but a few times I came close to it.

I realize that in order to talk in your dream, you have to want to say what you're saying from the bottom of your heart. I know, because I woke up halfway through a line before. When I became conscious and before I opened my eyes in the middle of one night, I found my mouth open and pronouncing something I cannot remember. But I remember I really wanted to say whatever it was I was going to say. In fact, I was shouting in my dreams.

The strange thing was, what woke me up was that I found the feel of saying it very hard, like my jaw muscles were lethargic. As if I had just awaken in the middle of my sleep. That connection caused me to think and stopped my dream right away. It was then that I realized that whatever I say in my sleep, I'm probably quite serious about it. If it's a lie that I'm saying, it is likely I really want to tell that lie. LOL it's no help at all.

Another time I woke up seriously confused. I was having a slight fever and had some strange yet exciting dreams. I knew it was exciting because my shirt was wet when I awoke. And it wasn't piss.

When I opened my eyes, I kept thinking I had to contact someone. What I remember about the dream was that I was going to arrest someone, but an organization with higher authority stopped it. I was going to ask for an explanation but I woke up right then.

And then I saw my surroundings and was totally confused. The thought that I had to contact them kept repeating itself in my mind, but I also saw that I was lying in my bed. Which train of thought was I supposed to follow? Do I have to find a phone? But what number should I call? How do I find it? Am I sleeping? Is this room mine? What am I doing here?

Fever. Does strange things to your mind.

Among all the common illnesses out there, I'd really prefer a flu, simply because I'm almost immune to runny noses. In fact, something's weird about my nasal passage such that mucus does not run into my nose when it's supposed to be flooded. It's fine normally, but when I get a flu, I choke on my mucus instead. It's like having some rather fluid phlegm all the time. I cough a lot, but I don't have to blow my nose. Not like certain people who blow their nose right in the bloody tutorial room loudly during class. I mean, please, the washroom is about 10m away on both the right and left of the doors. GTFO before blowing. We don't need to listen to your nasal evacuation process. Not in class. Do that during dinner please. With your parents, mind you, not with us. I'd love to see their faces. Please learn some fucking manners and common sense.

Now that's another example of why I said it takes at least 3 generations for a society to become significantly more cultured and civilized.

Well, actually even I have no idea if that's a form of manners, since no one's told me anything about that. But I do find it slightly repulsive and disturbing when someone's blowing their nose loudly in a quiet area. It amplifies the watery noise.









Golgo 13. An anime that lacks that exciting combat action that Naruto and Bleach have. It's 40 years old after all. Uses a lot of still pictures and manga-type of effects like the straight lines exploding from the guy and stuff like that. But Golgo 13's skill with guns is ridiculously ridiculous. With a modified M16, he shot at the exact same point from a distance of 700m. I mean, I know this is fiction, but did you need to shove it into my face? Fucking cool, lot's of WTF moments. It's like the grandfather of all popular action anime.





I made shortbread. Evidently, some were removed, while they were still warm, for beta testing.



A couple prepares chocolate fondue for us. The Overlord oversees the process.



"Can't this creepy guy leave? We need some privacy here please."



"fgsdjs"



Does Ivan feed you chocolate so happily, XL? Does he? Does he?!?!?



This is just green tea, but apparently it's working as well as alcohol.



Translation of expression:
- CM: I like this guy.
- HX: I like this slave.




The chocolate! It's all mine! MINE!



HX doesn't like me taking such photos.


But these are such great shots of the Overlord.



Especially this!



If CM is reading this, take note of the state of the bolster. HX is gentle only when he is conscious, if at all.

Rant 155 / Feel The Burn

I find that many people are overly expressive of their emotions in many situations. Of course, the biggest example would be Taiwanese TV shows. But in their case, the entertainers are required to exaggerate their feelings unless they're supposed to have a "cool" image. In real life though, no one is required to do the same. So why do people scream in surprise? Scream. Surprise. Pleasant event. Scream. DOES NOT COMPUTE!

This is but one of the many things that people exaggerate in real life. Do they do so because they cannot control their emotions, or because they think they're supposed to act that way?

I believe in the latter, especially when it comes to females. My guess is that they are influenced by TV, all that drama and shit. Guys are less prone to such outbursts, but they do scream together with the ladies who initiated that moment of embarassing madness. I remember once when I was travelling in a bus with a group of friends when we went past a certain shop that had a very unique name. The first time, we chuckled about it and had a good laugh after that. The next time we went past that, one guy pointed out that we were approaching the same shop and all the girls screamed in excitement. The guy too.

What?

I was shocked. I do not comprehend. What made it so ridiculously amazing that we are going past that shop with a funny name? For fuck's sake, that wasn't the first time we saw it! Screaming served absolutely no purpose whatsoever in this situation, aside from making a din.





People are born conformists. The April edition of TIME says so. People generally do what everyone else is doing. I believe this is the same with romantic relationships. In fact, this is precisely why primary school kids get girlfriends and boyfriends. Fuck, they can't even have a fucking erection and they're already preparing for that? Where the fuck is the logic? How the fuck did they begin to want a romantic relationship? The inborn instinct to conform to the environment, of course.

Which may seem wrong at first. I don't like it, but it makes the world go round. If people aren't conformists in general, we wouldn't have taxpayers. Tax was invented to make the rich contribute more to the society. The logic was that by making everyone pay a percentage of their income, rich people would pay more. But let's face it - this isn't happening now. In terms of actual numbers, it is true. But relative to what each of us own, rich people are paying less! Blame this on the tax laws for companies and benefits of working in one.

And why are rich people given more free stuff than the others? Why are CEOs and directors given free first class seats by their companies? These are nothing to them, so why bother giving them? Why not split up the costs and give the lower employees free budget airline seats? This would be much, much more to these people for the same price. Efficiency and effectiveness is increased.

But logic isn't how the world works. Oh no. Logic rarely guides how people behave. Studies have shown that people rationalize after the deed is done,ie, people do things first and think why they do it second. Where is the logic in this? None!






Found out that Romans used to worship a god of the penis, Priapus. This minor god has a permanent erection. A certain painful medical condition is also name after him. Priapism, the condition in which a person's erection does not stop at all. Also, there is still a religion that worships the penis.

Where can I worship the vagina? Where is the justice?? Female genetilia needs our worship too! Ah, but that why we have porn. People worship the vagina that way, paying tribute to this magnificient... body part... in their own homes, without having an official religion for it.




Tired.