16 Aug 2014
So who are my international readers? The last post had 20 views the day it was posted (accurate as of 0030 Saturday +8GMT), yet the blog only had 10 views from Singapore.
The other 10 were most likely from Russia, US and UK. Strange to think that Russians would be interested to read about my life.
25 Aug 2014
Going to Phuket with two ladies tomorrow. Sounds enviable but they're both not available and older than me. Hot though. One is engaged while the other is in a limbo state between freshly broke up and still attached. Long story.
Good tips from them nonetheless.
01 Sept 2014
Talking to a lot of people now so the desire to blog is getting really tiny.
There was a funny incident with a sea gypsy boy in Phuket though. (Sea gypsies were nomads who travelled around in boats for the last millenia who only settled down on land around the Andaman Sea about a century ago, but even now they're still mostly fishermen and sailors.) When my guide learnt that they didn't like school, she asked in Thai if he knew how to fish. He said yes, so she asked if he could speak English.
And he replied," No, but can you fish?"
So cheeky lol!
Anyway the sea gypsies were an interesting people. Kinda like the kampong folks in Malaysia. They believe they originated from some part of Indonesia but lacking a written language, they can only make claims they will never be able to prove. However, they also speak Bahasa Melayu in addition to whichever language is spoken in the country their ancestors chose to settle in, so it's kinda confusing.
The guide also brought me to see the village chief who was a second-generation sea gypsy. His parents were some of the first sea gypsies to settle in Thailand, so he was one of the few remaining ones who still recall what their original boats looked like. Today, they all use boats with similar shapes but with motors, so no oars, no shelters and no sails.
In order to let his descendants know what he had seen in the past, he has become the only boat model maker in the village, and I actually bought one without haggling. 1000 baht, but it seems meaningful enough to be worth the price. Similar boat models in the airport were going at 2300 bahts, and those weren't lovingly carved and lacquered by the village chief of the largest sea gypsy village in Phuket.
So this 1000baht was definitely worth spending.
04 Sept 2014
Back to 86kg again.
Seriously, I now believe it's because of the lack of exercise. This weight loss probably isn't due to the reduction of fats but that of muscular mass instead.
How else is it possible that I can lose weight despite eating so much in Phuket?
The change in photo in my online profile took some time to work, but work it did.
Now I'm chatting with three girls simultaneously all of a sudden, in addition to the chats I already have with platonic friends.
Too bad I really don't want to go out with anyone from now till the coming Wednesday. Got to clear a huge backlog and a few appointments have already been made on top of that. Maybe just for one of them, I may make an exception. She's kinda unique in that she's also into extreme sports and yet geeky.
So now it's settled - I'm like the younger brother she never had. Part of me likes her, but the rest of me (mainly my brain) knows it's a ridiculously bad idea to try to go any further. She's hot, thoughtful and smart, but she also comes with a humongous package of catches. On my end, I'm not smart, thoughtful nor experienced in (real) life. Liking her is just me, as a straight guy, being shallow.
So this is what it's like to have an elder sister.
Btw I'm not going to concede that I'm less experienced in all aspects of life, just reality. While chatting with a friend who's working in cybersecurity a few weeks ago, he actually asked me why I didn't go into his industry. Yes, I was flattered lol
I was just young, curious and playful. While my sister here went partying and drinking and getting into bad relationships, I was more interested in getting access into accounts, bypassing censors and finding out how software pirates work.
Just to be clear, I never went further than trying to be a script kiddie. Having almost no experience in programming, I couldn't have done anything more than use what others have made and put online. Moreover, my knowledge on social engineering is limited, not to mention outdated, since I've only read the books by Kevin Mitnick and a bit more online.
Then again, I bet a lot of the local uni grads going into that industry probably haven't read or done what I've done anyway until they've worked there for a while.
Oh wow my new CC has SO MANY PERKS!
If I pay the full travel fares with the card, I automatically get free travel insurance! Holy crap!!
But I've got to clarify what "full travel fares" mean - does it simply refer to the airfares? Because if the price of the tour is included, then I won't get it for the NZ trip. Otherwise, I haven't booked my air tickets yet so I still have a chance!
Also, free golf games. No use for that but maybe I can find someone to play with me and teach me.
As for the renewal fees, I really don't see any reason why I shouldn't pay. Comes with 25k miles for the S$535 fee. Since the normal mileage rate is 1.4 miles per dollar spent, this rate for the renewal fee (46.7miles per dollar) is just awesome. With this card, I seriously don't get why some people are telling me that I should never pay the renewal fee for cards.
Another thing I noticed was how eager they were to get me the card. The biggest hint is this: they have yet to ask me for any document other than my IC. With the money I've deposited in the bank, they are clearly not giving a damn about how much I make - and I make about A LOT less than the $120k p.a. that they require for this card.
This is funny to me because my bro actually got rejected when he tried to apply some good cards with another bank. Really, money talks.
Thursday, 4 September 2014
Friday, 15 August 2014
Rant 1200 / Too Far Gone.
14 July 2014
Finally, an ERB season finale I really like.
What does one do when a girl one doesn't really like in the gf sort of way expresses her liking for him?
My first time encountering this, discounting the ridiculous but mild harassment by another woman.
I know I should be nice, but to what extent?
My first time googling "how to reject a girl nicely".
She also told me her age in the text so I'll just pretend I didn't know she was this old until now, then go with the "we can still be friends" thing.
I already knew roughly how old she was when she told me how long it's been since she was in uni.
22 July 2014
Yes! Happy happy joy joy.
Another small step towards success!
Wanted to make the first date easier by asking her to join a group outing, but she wasn't interested in Hercules. Fortunately, she also told me the movies she WANTED to watch! Woot!
Let's see if I can get that first date with her.
26 July 2014
It's been weird. First she gave me enough hints to confirm that she didn't want to watch movies with me, then when I tried to set up a meeting to pass her the facial masks I bought for her in Korea, she suggested watching a movie with me before enthusiastically agreeing to brunch too.
I don't even know what's going on now; girls are complicated. This is like a date that isn't a date, seriously. However I won't be paying for her since I'm not trying to pursue her anymore. Just going to be friends now and treat her mixed signals as just being very friendly, just like I do with another girl.
It's weird that I'm making good friends now with only girls.
27 July 2014
So I realized that the above was just me overthinking this. Should just treat her like other friends.
Funny thing was that when I told another friend how I behaved today with her, that friend told me I should have apologized for not waiting for her before ordering and getting a seat.
Since I'm just treating her like other friends, that was not necessary. So what's this friend trying to tell me? That I should try to be more than just a friend.
It's not a date date; this is just two friends catching a movie and having a meal. Why should I bother with that sort of stuff?
01 Aug 2014
So there was this niece of one of the ladies at a dinner outing I attended who had the most beautiful smile. She came with a guy whom she claimed was just her friend, but it looks more like he is her bf.
Had a hard time resisting the urge to focus on her but it got easier when her aunt invited everyone to an outing at a shooting range. Now that's a better opportunity to approach her.
Not sure if it's even a good idea or not though since she's still at the age where it's cool to wear more blings than Christmas trees.
No, this is just me being shallow.
03 Aug 2014
So I've been seeing this girl almost everyday in the last week and it's all platonic. Not always 1-to-1 but mostly so.
This is so new to me. She's got the looks (really doesn't look her age) and the personality but too bad she's a little too old. Even if we ever date (which is impossible since her current bf is practically an angel), by the time I'm ready to get married, she'd probably be almost ready to deal with menopause. Moreover, she strongly believes in marrying for love, and there is none between us.
Nope. Just friends. She's a great friend, giving me a lot of good advice in many things. Not perfect, since she's a little naggy sometimes like a mother, but she's pointing me in the right direction so it's all good.
Come to think about it, I really am juggling a lot of things now. In addition to running this business, I'm also studying for the boating license, getting ready for a fashion-related course, studying for CFA level 1, reading certain finance papers/magazines, studying web design, and all the while going out to know more ladies.
In addition, foreign language courses are under consideration right now, while I've just started on a speed-reading course.
Speaking of which, learning speed-reading will be at the very top of my priority list from today onwards. Mastering this ability will make everything I'm juggling far easier.
04 Aug 2014
Now I'm a third of the way through the speedreading online course. Now I need time to get used to some of the new techniques.
06 Aug 2014
So I made a whole excel sheet to calculate which flights and times I should pick. Booked a Contiki tour package for NZ later this year and now I need a cheaper flight to compensate for the huge price tag.
This is going to be a little complicated.
The conclusion of my little research was that I can fly on Scootbiz to and from Australia, plus Jetstar economy between Australia and NZ, and still pay less than anything that can be found among full-service airlines.
Scootbiz for long haul! And it's still cheaper than full-service economy! Fuck yeah!
Yeah I thought about taking just one airline for the entire thing but Scoot doesn't fly to NZ while Jetstar's SG-AUS flights are more expensive than the aforementioned combination.
To add to the confusion, this flight plan includes transiting at different airports in Australia. From SG, I will be flying to Gold Coast before flying to Auckland. At the end, I will fly from Christchurch to Sydney then Singapore.
On the bright side, the flights to Auckland will both be direct flights, plus almost a whole day for me to explore the airport at Gold Coast, maybe even Gold Coast itself.
The end will be less comfortable though. The tour will end at 6pm but I will fly off only at 6am the next day to Sydney, then to SG almost 6 hours later. Deducting 2 hours for check-in, that's 4 hours to explore the airport.
11 Aug 2014
Apparently I missed Scoot's National Day sale since I wasn't in their mailing list. Oh well.
15 Aug 2014
Failed the theory test for the boating license. I can fail exams.
No potential target at all. Realized that I've always had a distorted view of romantic relationships, that they can be started from nothing. Like if I like a girl, I can try to woo/date her and get a gf.
It does not work that way.
Yet I have also discovered that this view is rather common among the less sociable guys.
What a tragedy.
The fact is that we all have to start from friendship; this is the norm.
Relationships that began in school were different because as schoolmates and classmates, we can observe one another much more easily without being close friends. Outside of school, there are few of such opportunities.
So now, I'm not going to bother targeting specific girls. Just going to try and know more, then see where it goes.
The tour to NZ will be covering Christmas and New Year's Day so the trip is going to be fantastic. Not cheap though, at 3k USD just for the tour, excluding flight tickets and the more exciting optional activities like skydiving.
I estimate that the whole thing will cost me around S$7-9k. $3.6k for the tour, $1.7k for the flights and at least $2k for food and drinks during the free nights and optional activities.
My bro decided to get an air-conditioner for the living room and a bi-fold door to separate the two living rooms to keep the cool air within one.
In addition, we're adding curtains to all the windows, so total is S$6k. Since his wife is pretty much officially living here, I'm paying only a third.
Still going out for food a lot with this female friend. I need to watch my weight. First time finding someone whom I can talk to for so long, although it's mainly her.
Wonder if I can ever find a gf like her. Her bf is so lucky but I wonder if he really understands that.
After comparing various cards and asking for advice from multiple sources, I've decided to sign up for Citigold for the Prestige card, if I can qualify. Technically I don't have enough annual income but there is the chance that they may change their minds when I deposit the minimum amount to qualify for Citigold.
The Citibank Prestige CC seems to have one of the best mileage for expenditure (1.4miles per $1 local spend) and has rebates for groceries too, so I like it more than others.
With this card, why do I need another card for normal spending? People seem to like to have one for miles and one for normal stuff but this card is good enough for both purposes.
Finally, an ERB season finale I really like.
What does one do when a girl one doesn't really like in the gf sort of way expresses her liking for him?
My first time encountering this, discounting the ridiculous but mild harassment by another woman.
I know I should be nice, but to what extent?
My first time googling "how to reject a girl nicely".
She also told me her age in the text so I'll just pretend I didn't know she was this old until now, then go with the "we can still be friends" thing.
I already knew roughly how old she was when she told me how long it's been since she was in uni.
22 July 2014
Yes! Happy happy joy joy.
Another small step towards success!
Wanted to make the first date easier by asking her to join a group outing, but she wasn't interested in Hercules. Fortunately, she also told me the movies she WANTED to watch! Woot!
Let's see if I can get that first date with her.
26 July 2014
It's been weird. First she gave me enough hints to confirm that she didn't want to watch movies with me, then when I tried to set up a meeting to pass her the facial masks I bought for her in Korea, she suggested watching a movie with me before enthusiastically agreeing to brunch too.
I don't even know what's going on now; girls are complicated. This is like a date that isn't a date, seriously. However I won't be paying for her since I'm not trying to pursue her anymore. Just going to be friends now and treat her mixed signals as just being very friendly, just like I do with another girl.
It's weird that I'm making good friends now with only girls.
27 July 2014
So I realized that the above was just me overthinking this. Should just treat her like other friends.
Funny thing was that when I told another friend how I behaved today with her, that friend told me I should have apologized for not waiting for her before ordering and getting a seat.
Since I'm just treating her like other friends, that was not necessary. So what's this friend trying to tell me? That I should try to be more than just a friend.
It's not a date date; this is just two friends catching a movie and having a meal. Why should I bother with that sort of stuff?
01 Aug 2014
So there was this niece of one of the ladies at a dinner outing I attended who had the most beautiful smile. She came with a guy whom she claimed was just her friend, but it looks more like he is her bf.
Had a hard time resisting the urge to focus on her but it got easier when her aunt invited everyone to an outing at a shooting range. Now that's a better opportunity to approach her.
Not sure if it's even a good idea or not though since she's still at the age where it's cool to wear more blings than Christmas trees.
No, this is just me being shallow.
03 Aug 2014
So I've been seeing this girl almost everyday in the last week and it's all platonic. Not always 1-to-1 but mostly so.
This is so new to me. She's got the looks (really doesn't look her age) and the personality but too bad she's a little too old. Even if we ever date (which is impossible since her current bf is practically an angel), by the time I'm ready to get married, she'd probably be almost ready to deal with menopause. Moreover, she strongly believes in marrying for love, and there is none between us.
Nope. Just friends. She's a great friend, giving me a lot of good advice in many things. Not perfect, since she's a little naggy sometimes like a mother, but she's pointing me in the right direction so it's all good.
Come to think about it, I really am juggling a lot of things now. In addition to running this business, I'm also studying for the boating license, getting ready for a fashion-related course, studying for CFA level 1, reading certain finance papers/magazines, studying web design, and all the while going out to know more ladies.
In addition, foreign language courses are under consideration right now, while I've just started on a speed-reading course.
Speaking of which, learning speed-reading will be at the very top of my priority list from today onwards. Mastering this ability will make everything I'm juggling far easier.
04 Aug 2014
Now I'm a third of the way through the speedreading online course. Now I need time to get used to some of the new techniques.
06 Aug 2014
So I made a whole excel sheet to calculate which flights and times I should pick. Booked a Contiki tour package for NZ later this year and now I need a cheaper flight to compensate for the huge price tag.
This is going to be a little complicated.
The conclusion of my little research was that I can fly on Scootbiz to and from Australia, plus Jetstar economy between Australia and NZ, and still pay less than anything that can be found among full-service airlines.
Scootbiz for long haul! And it's still cheaper than full-service economy! Fuck yeah!
Yeah I thought about taking just one airline for the entire thing but Scoot doesn't fly to NZ while Jetstar's SG-AUS flights are more expensive than the aforementioned combination.
To add to the confusion, this flight plan includes transiting at different airports in Australia. From SG, I will be flying to Gold Coast before flying to Auckland. At the end, I will fly from Christchurch to Sydney then Singapore.
On the bright side, the flights to Auckland will both be direct flights, plus almost a whole day for me to explore the airport at Gold Coast, maybe even Gold Coast itself.
The end will be less comfortable though. The tour will end at 6pm but I will fly off only at 6am the next day to Sydney, then to SG almost 6 hours later. Deducting 2 hours for check-in, that's 4 hours to explore the airport.
11 Aug 2014
Apparently I missed Scoot's National Day sale since I wasn't in their mailing list. Oh well.
15 Aug 2014
Failed the theory test for the boating license. I can fail exams.
No potential target at all. Realized that I've always had a distorted view of romantic relationships, that they can be started from nothing. Like if I like a girl, I can try to woo/date her and get a gf.
It does not work that way.
Yet I have also discovered that this view is rather common among the less sociable guys.
What a tragedy.
The fact is that we all have to start from friendship; this is the norm.
Relationships that began in school were different because as schoolmates and classmates, we can observe one another much more easily without being close friends. Outside of school, there are few of such opportunities.
So now, I'm not going to bother targeting specific girls. Just going to try and know more, then see where it goes.
The tour to NZ will be covering Christmas and New Year's Day so the trip is going to be fantastic. Not cheap though, at 3k USD just for the tour, excluding flight tickets and the more exciting optional activities like skydiving.
I estimate that the whole thing will cost me around S$7-9k. $3.6k for the tour, $1.7k for the flights and at least $2k for food and drinks during the free nights and optional activities.
My bro decided to get an air-conditioner for the living room and a bi-fold door to separate the two living rooms to keep the cool air within one.
In addition, we're adding curtains to all the windows, so total is S$6k. Since his wife is pretty much officially living here, I'm paying only a third.
Still going out for food a lot with this female friend. I need to watch my weight. First time finding someone whom I can talk to for so long, although it's mainly her.
Wonder if I can ever find a gf like her. Her bf is so lucky but I wonder if he really understands that.
After comparing various cards and asking for advice from multiple sources, I've decided to sign up for Citigold for the Prestige card, if I can qualify. Technically I don't have enough annual income but there is the chance that they may change their minds when I deposit the minimum amount to qualify for Citigold.
The Citibank Prestige CC seems to have one of the best mileage for expenditure (1.4miles per $1 local spend) and has rebates for groceries too, so I like it more than others.
With this card, why do I need another card for normal spending? People seem to like to have one for miles and one for normal stuff but this card is good enough for both purposes.
Meanwhile, the shallower part of me wonders if I'll get a hot RM to talk to me about their products.
Sunday, 13 July 2014
Rant 1199 / There Is Such A Thing As Too Much Balls.
07 July 2014
Ok, finally one legit success!
For once, I managed to ask a girl for her number IRL directly and not at a singles event. Oh yeah!
Cute but... she's a 3rd year uni student. I'm going younger and younger, not sure if this is even a good idea.
Regardless, YOLO!
New option if it turns out that I should move on. The current one, I'm going to wait till she returns to SG this month and try out a date or two. That's it.
08 July 2014
So the fresh grad is turning out to be pretty rich. After all the hiding, she finally blurted out that her family has a maid before revealing that both her parents are bosses of their own companies. And now she's going to work in a bank.
This may get intimidating.
On the other hand, I'm not sure if we really click. She said she's chatty but these days, she rarely checks her phone. To me, that's a strong sign of a lack of interest in talking to me.
Turns out that undergrad was a transguy, as in born female but pretty much male in all ways except physically. The only way I can date him is if I'm gay, since he's definitely going for treatment in the future.
Had an interesting chat though; they're so different from lesbians.
Tough life.
Ok, I am a little disappointed too - he was pretty interesting to talk to.
09 July 2014
Since the girl seems to be uninterested, time to continue to meet more girls.
Abandoning the use of Meetup.com as my main method but will still attend some. It's not bad, just not good enough. Too many older ladies, too few younger.
A rethink of my strategy is clearly required.
Discovered several options: volunteer work, foreign language course, clubbing, attending Diner en Blanc next year.
Removing clubbing from the list because despite what some clubber friends said, everything points to the fact that clubs are bad places to look for steads.
Volunteer work is a maybe because it is frowned upon, apparently, unless it's stated as a singles event.
Diner en Blanc is next year.
Remaining best possible option: attend a foreign language course.
Although it sucks that I've to do this all over again, I'm not exactly back to square one after all these months. Certainly, lessons have been learnt and friends were made who will make life easier for me in the future.
10 July 2014
Time to make a move. She's finally back in SG!
11 July 2014
Thought she had blocked me yesterday when her "Last seen" status vanished after arriving in SG. Apologized at midnight about being busy so I'm just too sensitive.
Anyway, asking her out is going to be hard. Both of us are busy. Possible though.
I think something's wrong with the Whatsapp app. Maybe it's a sign that I should be using the new Lenovo phone I got a while back as my main phone.
12 July 2014
So I can't ask her out because her mum's going to stay till next week. Her parents are very protective of their only daughter so I should worry about them.
Interesting lesson last night. There were a number of hot girls but my cousin had advised a while back that in each gathering, a guy can only ask for the number of one girl, so I picked one... and I failed.
Just couldn't get the right opportunity except for that one short sliver of a moment when we said bye, during which I just couldn't muster the courage to do it in front of everyone.
Apparently, that was a good thing.
My dating coach advised that I cannot keep asking for numbers in every gathering, not without being subtle about it. Apparently, if word spreads, I will look like what they call a "tryer", not to mention insincere.
In contrast, another guy there said it was perfectly ok when I mentioned this advice to him on the train home. Then again, he's a few years older and still single while my dating coach is a girl and in a steady relationship. Both used to be players. It's obvious here who's words are worth more.
Tomorrow, I will be going for a dinner, but it will not be to get another number. Instead, it will be a practice session for interacting with the ladies, including the ones I will never be interested in.
In other words, no more numbers. I like this current one too much to risk it.
It's crazy but the transguy just offered to introduce a nice girl to me. Not very good-looking but apparently she's good-natured and stuff. In a word, homely.
Nah, I'm already trying to date a better girl, and this new one is not attractive enough to worth risking that girl for.
It's worth noting because I've only known him for less than a week! Damn he's so nice!
Ok, finally one legit success!
For once, I managed to ask a girl for her number IRL directly and not at a singles event. Oh yeah!
Cute but... she's a 3rd year uni student. I'm going younger and younger, not sure if this is even a good idea.
Regardless, YOLO!
New option if it turns out that I should move on. The current one, I'm going to wait till she returns to SG this month and try out a date or two. That's it.
08 July 2014
So the fresh grad is turning out to be pretty rich. After all the hiding, she finally blurted out that her family has a maid before revealing that both her parents are bosses of their own companies. And now she's going to work in a bank.
This may get intimidating.
On the other hand, I'm not sure if we really click. She said she's chatty but these days, she rarely checks her phone. To me, that's a strong sign of a lack of interest in talking to me.
Turns out that undergrad was a transguy, as in born female but pretty much male in all ways except physically. The only way I can date him is if I'm gay, since he's definitely going for treatment in the future.
Had an interesting chat though; they're so different from lesbians.
Tough life.
Ok, I am a little disappointed too - he was pretty interesting to talk to.
09 July 2014
Since the girl seems to be uninterested, time to continue to meet more girls.
Abandoning the use of Meetup.com as my main method but will still attend some. It's not bad, just not good enough. Too many older ladies, too few younger.
A rethink of my strategy is clearly required.
Discovered several options: volunteer work, foreign language course, clubbing, attending Diner en Blanc next year.
Removing clubbing from the list because despite what some clubber friends said, everything points to the fact that clubs are bad places to look for steads.
Volunteer work is a maybe because it is frowned upon, apparently, unless it's stated as a singles event.
Diner en Blanc is next year.
Remaining best possible option: attend a foreign language course.
Although it sucks that I've to do this all over again, I'm not exactly back to square one after all these months. Certainly, lessons have been learnt and friends were made who will make life easier for me in the future.
10 July 2014
Time to make a move. She's finally back in SG!
11 July 2014
Thought she had blocked me yesterday when her "Last seen" status vanished after arriving in SG. Apologized at midnight about being busy so I'm just too sensitive.
Anyway, asking her out is going to be hard. Both of us are busy. Possible though.
I think something's wrong with the Whatsapp app. Maybe it's a sign that I should be using the new Lenovo phone I got a while back as my main phone.
12 July 2014
So I can't ask her out because her mum's going to stay till next week. Her parents are very protective of their only daughter so I should worry about them.
Interesting lesson last night. There were a number of hot girls but my cousin had advised a while back that in each gathering, a guy can only ask for the number of one girl, so I picked one... and I failed.
Just couldn't get the right opportunity except for that one short sliver of a moment when we said bye, during which I just couldn't muster the courage to do it in front of everyone.
Apparently, that was a good thing.
My dating coach advised that I cannot keep asking for numbers in every gathering, not without being subtle about it. Apparently, if word spreads, I will look like what they call a "tryer", not to mention insincere.
In contrast, another guy there said it was perfectly ok when I mentioned this advice to him on the train home. Then again, he's a few years older and still single while my dating coach is a girl and in a steady relationship. Both used to be players. It's obvious here who's words are worth more.
Tomorrow, I will be going for a dinner, but it will not be to get another number. Instead, it will be a practice session for interacting with the ladies, including the ones I will never be interested in.
In other words, no more numbers. I like this current one too much to risk it.
It's crazy but the transguy just offered to introduce a nice girl to me. Not very good-looking but apparently she's good-natured and stuff. In a word, homely.
Nah, I'm already trying to date a better girl, and this new one is not attractive enough to worth risking that girl for.
It's worth noting because I've only known him for less than a week! Damn he's so nice!
Sunday, 6 July 2014
Rant 1198 / I Like My Sugar With Coffee
04 June 2014
Low-hanging fruit. Going to ask the latest one out. Would ask the fresh grad out but she's still overseas on her grad trip, and we're running out of things to talk about since all she can think about is places to visit in China and I barely know any of those.
This one, I don't know. I'm concerned about her finances and that she's probably got ADHD.
Low-hanging fruit.
Chinups somehow improving. Almost managed to kiss the ceiling above the bar today. Weight dropped from 92 to 88 again. Must have eaten way too much in the last few days.
I don't even know how it works. It's not like I'm exercising much. Just around 3-5 quasi-chinups a day.
05 June 2015
It's true - I'm lonely. She's cute too.
Asked her out for a movie this weekend. Got a positive reply. Another milestone.
25 with a private diploma; I really am concerned about her ability to stand on her own, hence this does not look like it will be a long-term thing.
In the meantime, another girl is considering sharing my double bed room with me in Taiwan if she can't find any travel buddies.
As for the girl in China, we barely talk anymore because she's trying to explore almost the entire China before she starts her working life.
Yet another girl is asking me to go to Cambodia with her. This one is really all platonic since she's attached and there's at least one more guy with us. Sucks that she's attached, but not surprising at all. She's pretty awesome, though she seems pretty serious about Jesus. Religion is a downside for me.
And a failure. This Indonesian girl barely talks. I tried, she seemed interested since she always replied but her replies were so short I had nothing to respond with. With these many things bugging me, I'm not going to bother to talk to her till she warms up to me. It looks possible though.
I just couldn't help but say,"The fuck...?"
07 June 2014
09 June 2014
So that's a date. We just sat around and chat a lot. Somehow I don't talk about movies I've just watched so we didn't discuss the one we watched much. I don't know, I just can't think of anything to say about the film usually, and it was no different this time.
And I don't know about this girl. She's nice and all but I will probably never let this become "serious".
Low-hanging fruit. Going to ask the latest one out. Would ask the fresh grad out but she's still overseas on her grad trip, and we're running out of things to talk about since all she can think about is places to visit in China and I barely know any of those.
This one, I don't know. I'm concerned about her finances and that she's probably got ADHD.
Low-hanging fruit.
Chinups somehow improving. Almost managed to kiss the ceiling above the bar today. Weight dropped from 92 to 88 again. Must have eaten way too much in the last few days.
I don't even know how it works. It's not like I'm exercising much. Just around 3-5 quasi-chinups a day.
05 June 2015
It's true - I'm lonely. She's cute too.
Asked her out for a movie this weekend. Got a positive reply. Another milestone.
25 with a private diploma; I really am concerned about her ability to stand on her own, hence this does not look like it will be a long-term thing.
In the meantime, another girl is considering sharing my double bed room with me in Taiwan if she can't find any travel buddies.
As for the girl in China, we barely talk anymore because she's trying to explore almost the entire China before she starts her working life.
Yet another girl is asking me to go to Cambodia with her. This one is really all platonic since she's attached and there's at least one more guy with us. Sucks that she's attached, but not surprising at all. She's pretty awesome, though she seems pretty serious about Jesus. Religion is a downside for me.
And a failure. This Indonesian girl barely talks. I tried, she seemed interested since she always replied but her replies were so short I had nothing to respond with. With these many things bugging me, I'm not going to bother to talk to her till she warms up to me. It looks possible though.
I just couldn't help but say,"The fuck...?"
07 June 2014
09 June 2014
So that's a date. We just sat around and chat a lot. Somehow I don't talk about movies I've just watched so we didn't discuss the one we watched much. I don't know, I just can't think of anything to say about the film usually, and it was no different this time.
And I don't know about this girl. She's nice and all but I will probably never let this become "serious".
Maybe there is some truth to the online quiz result saying I may have narcissistic personality disorder. Back when I first saw it, I immediately dismissed it when it said I lacked empathy.
The girl I dated the other day just told me her grandfather is in critical condition in a hospital and I feel... absolutely nothing.
No concern, no sympathy, nada - just another Monday evening.
I reacted as I was supposed to but inside me, nothing stirred.
No concern, no sympathy, nada - just another Monday evening.
I reacted as I was supposed to but inside me, nothing stirred.
This kinda worries me though, the lack of concern. Shouldn't I feel sad or worried?
10 June 2014
Communication. Maybe that's the key.
I like her but I believe I should date more girls.
Choices. Two other girls I am interested in dating but cannot at the moment - do I wait or do I search for more? Not impossible to date though, just got to wait a bit more.
There's yet another girl who's been trying to talk to me and making me overthink. She's attached but whenever a girl initiates conversations with me more than once within a week, I just automatically think that there's more to it than simply the desire to chat with me.
Maybe I'm underestimating my conversational ability? Unlikely. Or maybe I just need to be less insecure.
13 June 2014
Finished Lifeless Planet. Interesting game. It's so easy it's more of an interactive story than a game. Or maybe, the gameplay is meant to stretch it out to pace the story. Maybe.
She's unable to come out this week due to the passing of a family member, and explicitly told me that she wasn't trying to avoid me. That implies that a second date is practically guaranteed.
But the other girl will be coming back to Singapore soon.
Drinking Long Flat's 2012 Pink Moscato now. Pretty good for the price: $17.25 (U.P. $18.95). It's the sweet and gassy sort, yet not a fortified wine. Rose wine, whatever that is. Great for non-drinkers like me. Never saw the appeal of dry wines anyway.
15th June 2014
Nope nope nope.
I may be overthinking this but I'm feeling a little guilty right now. This girl is just too... girlish. Not that I'm particularly manly but just.. no.
21 June 2014
Absolutely hilarious, the last scene.
Spent a lot of time thinking about how to say it and neglected to text her since Monday. Finally texted her this morning and she seemed confused. Apparently it would have been better to just ignore her but I felt that she deserved an explanation. Unfortunately she didn't seem to understand me so that didn't go well, and I ended up taking her advise and ignoring her, which led her to block me.
Weird, it was only one date. I guess it was a good idea to do it so quickly. Who knows how she would have reacted if I had taken longer?
The fact that she blocked me showed that she was taking it quite badly. She must have been seriously insecure then, to fall for my newbie sweet talk to that degree. Guess I made the right choice to end it after just one date.
23 June 2014
This energy! Been quite a while since I felt this energetic! But how to resist releasing it?
27 June 2014
Planet Explorers is FANTASTIC! It's exactly the kind of game I've always been looking for! Lots of exploration, custom-building and quests! Holy crap!!!
Exploration: huge map even in the relatively small story mode. I've spent two days in the game and I've only covered 2 biomes, a forest and a grassland, and under the forest is a huge cavernous maze!
The building part is big too! In this game, building a car does not simply mean getting all the components and clicking on "Build". Instead, the player goes to the Creation menu and customizes a vehicle from scratch. The game only builds the seat, engine and wheels using the "Replicated" button but the player has to decide where to place these components and build the frame from scratch.
And you can probably build tanks that way too.
This is the same for watercrafts, aircrafts, structures and equipment.
To build a base, there are also sentry guns in addition to whatever structures you want to build (like watchtowers and fortified walls). Not sure if the sentry guns can be customized though.
Really recommend it for ppl who love to build and explore!
This is weird. She must be the most sociable girl I know because she's just invited me for 3 events over 4 days.
I'm not doing anything here because she's attached. No sweetening of my words or anything.
They aren't the sort of dates that I may find inappropriate between a single guy and an attached girl since she's invited others too, except for the one on Monday.
Too bad I'm flying on Monday.
Can people really be that friendly and sweet?
I said sweet because she helped me with two things consecutively.
First, I helped her order some stuff and in exchange, I asked her to just give me a free movie ticket the next time she organizes an outing instead of paying cash. Hence she invited me for a movie on Saturday. The problem here was that it was the same movie I'd already signed up for with another guy for tonight, and I'd already cancelled my slot for the last outing he organized. It might be annoying for him to do it again and find someone to take my place.
When she realized that, she offered to talk to him for me since he owed her favours.
After that, she figured she had made my Friday night empty, so she invited me for another event tonight. Holy crap, a girl this sweet, I can't believe her time isn't fully booked by her bf. What is she doing alone on both Friday and Saturday nights?!
OR maybe I'm just going crazy from not fapping for so many days.
28th June 2014
So it was just the two of us plus another girl as the others couldn't make it.
06 July 2014
Should I be worried if I'm chatting with a girl I'm not trying to date far more often than with the one whom I am?
Maybe she's busy, or maybe it's time to move on; I'm inclined with the latter.
Time to rethink my strategy if this goes on. Perhaps I really should consider the new idea that girl I'm chatting a lot of with gave me.
Anyway she also gave me a crash course on nail polish shopping. I never noticed the sample nails until last week in Seoul when I provided personal shopping service for her while wandering the streets of Namdaemun. It was so what I kinda expected when it resulted in me standing around there for about 20mins or half an hour just to get a bottle of nail polish and a box of glitter.
Very amusing, and I'm not being sarcastic. She was SO fussy lol.
That girl I'm trying to date, she was much simpler, mainly because she had been spending her last week in Europe and had been able to buy plenty of cosmetic stuff over there, and partly because the only Korean brand she was interested in was quite out of the way for me. In the end, I only got her 60 masks. Cheap because Etude House was having a promotion and their latests masks were going for less than 5k wons (about 800KRW per SGD) per packet of 10. The normal price for most brands seems to be 10k wons per packet.
Kept saying she's not rich, but the more I chat with her, the wealthier she seems and the more worrying it's getting.
As for Seoul, the street food at Myeongdong seems to be changing. This year, there's ice cream in some kind of edible waffle tubes, meatballs, and roasted gingko nuts, among many others, not just fish cakes everywhere like the first time I was there.
Oh yes, jajangmyeun too, but DO NOT TRY. Stick with those sold in restaurants. The stuff they sell at the roadside stalls is terrible, and it's inconvenient to eat anyway.
Regardless, it's great because I can literally have a full meal just by walking around Myeongdong. Meatballs, Korean vermicelli, seaweed fishcakes, roasted nuts, and have at least two types of ice creams for dessert. Awesome!
Just not cheap LOL
Far cheaper to get a nice bowl of bibimbap for 4-6k each. Or visit the porridge shop just next to ibis Ambassador Myeongdong, the hotel I was staying at, for their nice porridge or dumpling soup. Still as awesome as ever but expensive as fuck. 10k wons for the seafood porridge! That's like S$8! However, to be fair, it's still pretty good value with the fresh ingredients and free flow squid kimchi (and radish and cabbage kimchi). Yes, I only go for the squid kimchi because that's the only place I know that serves it.
Chinups somehow didn't get worse when I got back. Very slightly harder but still able to kiss the ceiling when I'm up, and I'm still able to start from a lower height, about 60 degrees below the horizontal.
Planet Explorers is awesome but... I lost an important NPC!!! Ugh!
He's one of the NPCs that gave me a quest that was vital to the storyline, so now I'm stuck at this point with the only solution being to search a gigantic area to find him again.
I'm restarting this. There's no console command to make him pop up next to me like in Fallout or Skyrim.
10 June 2014
Communication. Maybe that's the key.
I like her but I believe I should date more girls.
Choices. Two other girls I am interested in dating but cannot at the moment - do I wait or do I search for more? Not impossible to date though, just got to wait a bit more.
There's yet another girl who's been trying to talk to me and making me overthink. She's attached but whenever a girl initiates conversations with me more than once within a week, I just automatically think that there's more to it than simply the desire to chat with me.
Maybe I'm underestimating my conversational ability? Unlikely. Or maybe I just need to be less insecure.
13 June 2014
Finished Lifeless Planet. Interesting game. It's so easy it's more of an interactive story than a game. Or maybe, the gameplay is meant to stretch it out to pace the story. Maybe.
She's unable to come out this week due to the passing of a family member, and explicitly told me that she wasn't trying to avoid me. That implies that a second date is practically guaranteed.
But the other girl will be coming back to Singapore soon.
Drinking Long Flat's 2012 Pink Moscato now. Pretty good for the price: $17.25 (U.P. $18.95). It's the sweet and gassy sort, yet not a fortified wine. Rose wine, whatever that is. Great for non-drinkers like me. Never saw the appeal of dry wines anyway.
15th June 2014
Nope nope nope.
I may be overthinking this but I'm feeling a little guilty right now. This girl is just too... girlish. Not that I'm particularly manly but just.. no.
21 June 2014
Absolutely hilarious, the last scene.
Spent a lot of time thinking about how to say it and neglected to text her since Monday. Finally texted her this morning and she seemed confused. Apparently it would have been better to just ignore her but I felt that she deserved an explanation. Unfortunately she didn't seem to understand me so that didn't go well, and I ended up taking her advise and ignoring her, which led her to block me.
Weird, it was only one date. I guess it was a good idea to do it so quickly. Who knows how she would have reacted if I had taken longer?
The fact that she blocked me showed that she was taking it quite badly. She must have been seriously insecure then, to fall for my newbie sweet talk to that degree. Guess I made the right choice to end it after just one date.
23 June 2014
This energy! Been quite a while since I felt this energetic! But how to resist releasing it?
27 June 2014
Planet Explorers is FANTASTIC! It's exactly the kind of game I've always been looking for! Lots of exploration, custom-building and quests! Holy crap!!!
Exploration: huge map even in the relatively small story mode. I've spent two days in the game and I've only covered 2 biomes, a forest and a grassland, and under the forest is a huge cavernous maze!
The building part is big too! In this game, building a car does not simply mean getting all the components and clicking on "Build". Instead, the player goes to the Creation menu and customizes a vehicle from scratch. The game only builds the seat, engine and wheels using the "Replicated" button but the player has to decide where to place these components and build the frame from scratch.
And you can probably build tanks that way too.
This is the same for watercrafts, aircrafts, structures and equipment.
To build a base, there are also sentry guns in addition to whatever structures you want to build (like watchtowers and fortified walls). Not sure if the sentry guns can be customized though.
Really recommend it for ppl who love to build and explore!
This is weird. She must be the most sociable girl I know because she's just invited me for 3 events over 4 days.
I'm not doing anything here because she's attached. No sweetening of my words or anything.
They aren't the sort of dates that I may find inappropriate between a single guy and an attached girl since she's invited others too, except for the one on Monday.
Too bad I'm flying on Monday.
Can people really be that friendly and sweet?
I said sweet because she helped me with two things consecutively.
First, I helped her order some stuff and in exchange, I asked her to just give me a free movie ticket the next time she organizes an outing instead of paying cash. Hence she invited me for a movie on Saturday. The problem here was that it was the same movie I'd already signed up for with another guy for tonight, and I'd already cancelled my slot for the last outing he organized. It might be annoying for him to do it again and find someone to take my place.
When she realized that, she offered to talk to him for me since he owed her favours.
After that, she figured she had made my Friday night empty, so she invited me for another event tonight. Holy crap, a girl this sweet, I can't believe her time isn't fully booked by her bf. What is she doing alone on both Friday and Saturday nights?!
OR maybe I'm just going crazy from not fapping for so many days.
28th June 2014
So it was just the two of us plus another girl as the others couldn't make it.
06 July 2014
Should I be worried if I'm chatting with a girl I'm not trying to date far more often than with the one whom I am?
Maybe she's busy, or maybe it's time to move on; I'm inclined with the latter.
Time to rethink my strategy if this goes on. Perhaps I really should consider the new idea that girl I'm chatting a lot of with gave me.
Anyway she also gave me a crash course on nail polish shopping. I never noticed the sample nails until last week in Seoul when I provided personal shopping service for her while wandering the streets of Namdaemun. It was so what I kinda expected when it resulted in me standing around there for about 20mins or half an hour just to get a bottle of nail polish and a box of glitter.
Very amusing, and I'm not being sarcastic. She was SO fussy lol.
That girl I'm trying to date, she was much simpler, mainly because she had been spending her last week in Europe and had been able to buy plenty of cosmetic stuff over there, and partly because the only Korean brand she was interested in was quite out of the way for me. In the end, I only got her 60 masks. Cheap because Etude House was having a promotion and their latests masks were going for less than 5k wons (about 800KRW per SGD) per packet of 10. The normal price for most brands seems to be 10k wons per packet.
Kept saying she's not rich, but the more I chat with her, the wealthier she seems and the more worrying it's getting.
As for Seoul, the street food at Myeongdong seems to be changing. This year, there's ice cream in some kind of edible waffle tubes, meatballs, and roasted gingko nuts, among many others, not just fish cakes everywhere like the first time I was there.
Oh yes, jajangmyeun too, but DO NOT TRY. Stick with those sold in restaurants. The stuff they sell at the roadside stalls is terrible, and it's inconvenient to eat anyway.
Regardless, it's great because I can literally have a full meal just by walking around Myeongdong. Meatballs, Korean vermicelli, seaweed fishcakes, roasted nuts, and have at least two types of ice creams for dessert. Awesome!
Just not cheap LOL
Far cheaper to get a nice bowl of bibimbap for 4-6k each. Or visit the porridge shop just next to ibis Ambassador Myeongdong, the hotel I was staying at, for their nice porridge or dumpling soup. Still as awesome as ever but expensive as fuck. 10k wons for the seafood porridge! That's like S$8! However, to be fair, it's still pretty good value with the fresh ingredients and free flow squid kimchi (and radish and cabbage kimchi). Yes, I only go for the squid kimchi because that's the only place I know that serves it.
Chinups somehow didn't get worse when I got back. Very slightly harder but still able to kiss the ceiling when I'm up, and I'm still able to start from a lower height, about 60 degrees below the horizontal.
Planet Explorers is awesome but... I lost an important NPC!!! Ugh!
He's one of the NPCs that gave me a quest that was vital to the storyline, so now I'm stuck at this point with the only solution being to search a gigantic area to find him again.
I'm restarting this. There's no console command to make him pop up next to me like in Fallout or Skyrim.
Tuesday, 3 June 2014
Rant 1197 / Azura Is No Ordinary Daedra
29th May 2014
So my cousin told me that my employment in his company will be postponed for half a year. In the meantime, I'm to learn to the necessary IT skills while also reading up on everything he had listed previously.
And pass the CFA Level 1 exam in Dec. And still run my business.
The first work-related person I mentioned this to immediately asked if I plan to sell the firm.
Why would I do that???
Now this is an example of why no matter how ambitious I thought I was, my relatives felt that I have been setting my sights too low.
People around me have so little ambition that I could not truly understand the meaning of the word until I really talked to my relatives when my bro got married!
Why be the boss of one business when you can be the boss of multiple??!? Why restrict yourself to only one field?
Even though I've stopped working out with dumbbells and the stationary bike regularly, I'm starting to use the chinup bar almost every time I walk under it.
The fact is that it's technically dangerous for me to do a real chinup due to my left shoulder. It's probably a very loose ligament at the back, so whenever I try to do a chinup starting from straightened arms, it feels like it would dislocated that shoulder.
Now I just do the underarm chinups starting from slightly bent arms, maybe 30 degrees from the horizontal axis, and I can do one... with a lot of straining and grunting. It does not sound like much but this is great progress for me. I still have never done a single proper chinup in my entire life on my own but this feels so close to my first.
30th May 2014
Went to Campers' Corner at Waterloo Street to get a hiking long-sleeve shirt and pants. These were meant for hiking in warm climate because they were made of polyester which allows for quick drying.
Cost about S$170, but they were both Marmot so that's reasonable enough.
Now I'm all prepared for hikes.
Going to join one tomorrow and if it's good, I'm going for my long walks by myself.
Gave the retiring worker a five-digit sum yesterday. She's been with us for almost one and a half decades so even though that was nowhere close to what I felt she deserved, that was the most I could afford.
Now I'm looking for a replacement but that's not been easy because Singaporeans seem to hate ironing like me. My staff have tried to ask among their friends but the ironing was what stopped them all from saying yes.
And here I thought the main issue was the ability to use the sewing machine.
Good thing it's not the peak season so things are still manageable.
01 June 2014
The hike turned out to be harder than I thought. It was about 12-15km from Seletar Reservoir to Pierce Reservoir, and half of it was through jungle.
I'm so glad I took the time to go to Campers' Corner and bought a long-sleeve shirt and convertible long pants for hiking, because not only were they light and cool, they protected me from the thorns and stuff.
The full-leather boots were another good idea because it allowed me to step on anything without worry. The only problem with these boots is that they gave me abrasion on my toes and ankles, although I think they just need to be broken in more.
Now I'm walking with the limp because the ball of my left foot is still aching.
02 June 2014
Went for Maleficient and met another cute girl but this time, it's a weird one. She likes to joke about killing stuff so much it's scary. Sure it was just twice in an evening but still, that's too much focus on death.
Still kinda interesting though. I didn't even know that being a barista is an interesting job.
Legs still aching.
Found a replacement but not sure if she's good enough. She used to use the bigger industrial sewing machines so it will take some time to know if she can use our smaller one.
03 June 2014
Booking a 4-night trip to Seoul for the near future and realized that it's really not worth the money to go for fare classes that give me club miles or sectors. Seriously, the price difference is S$600 here between Malaysian Airline tickets that give me nothing ($1000+) and Cathay Pacific tickets that give me miles and sectors at 100% rate ($1600+). Even if I compare with Malaysian Airlines' normal fare, the difference is still over $200.
Nope.
Ended up booking on Expedia a 5D4N trip to Seoul at ibis Ambassador Seoul Myeongdong. Surprisingly cheap this time, the hotel. Must be luck because it's even cheaper than any of the Skypark hotels at Myeongdong, and I was actually thinking about trying out Skypark III this time.
This trip is going to be tough because I will be going out mainly at night. No choice but to screw up my body clock for money.
The new worker doesn't really know how to use our larger sewing machine but is willing to learn. Now we've got to see if she can do it professionally by the end of the month. Apparently she's used to smaller ones at home, not big ones.
I fear Azura now.
I think I have to either finish my backlog tomorrow or go for a hike. Maybe both. The hike will be a simple one along the park connectors. Maybe go all the way up north to Bukit Timah. Let's see if I can finish the work by noon.
Water bag's filled up, backpack is ready, snack bar from combat ration still in backpack! All prepared for a long walk!
So my cousin told me that my employment in his company will be postponed for half a year. In the meantime, I'm to learn to the necessary IT skills while also reading up on everything he had listed previously.
And pass the CFA Level 1 exam in Dec. And still run my business.
The first work-related person I mentioned this to immediately asked if I plan to sell the firm.
Why would I do that???
Now this is an example of why no matter how ambitious I thought I was, my relatives felt that I have been setting my sights too low.
People around me have so little ambition that I could not truly understand the meaning of the word until I really talked to my relatives when my bro got married!
Why be the boss of one business when you can be the boss of multiple??!? Why restrict yourself to only one field?
Even though I've stopped working out with dumbbells and the stationary bike regularly, I'm starting to use the chinup bar almost every time I walk under it.
The fact is that it's technically dangerous for me to do a real chinup due to my left shoulder. It's probably a very loose ligament at the back, so whenever I try to do a chinup starting from straightened arms, it feels like it would dislocated that shoulder.
Now I just do the underarm chinups starting from slightly bent arms, maybe 30 degrees from the horizontal axis, and I can do one... with a lot of straining and grunting. It does not sound like much but this is great progress for me. I still have never done a single proper chinup in my entire life on my own but this feels so close to my first.
30th May 2014
Went to Campers' Corner at Waterloo Street to get a hiking long-sleeve shirt and pants. These were meant for hiking in warm climate because they were made of polyester which allows for quick drying.
Cost about S$170, but they were both Marmot so that's reasonable enough.
Now I'm all prepared for hikes.
Going to join one tomorrow and if it's good, I'm going for my long walks by myself.
Gave the retiring worker a five-digit sum yesterday. She's been with us for almost one and a half decades so even though that was nowhere close to what I felt she deserved, that was the most I could afford.
Now I'm looking for a replacement but that's not been easy because Singaporeans seem to hate ironing like me. My staff have tried to ask among their friends but the ironing was what stopped them all from saying yes.
And here I thought the main issue was the ability to use the sewing machine.
Good thing it's not the peak season so things are still manageable.
01 June 2014
The hike turned out to be harder than I thought. It was about 12-15km from Seletar Reservoir to Pierce Reservoir, and half of it was through jungle.
I'm so glad I took the time to go to Campers' Corner and bought a long-sleeve shirt and convertible long pants for hiking, because not only were they light and cool, they protected me from the thorns and stuff.
The full-leather boots were another good idea because it allowed me to step on anything without worry. The only problem with these boots is that they gave me abrasion on my toes and ankles, although I think they just need to be broken in more.
Now I'm walking with the limp because the ball of my left foot is still aching.
02 June 2014
Went for Maleficient and met another cute girl but this time, it's a weird one. She likes to joke about killing stuff so much it's scary. Sure it was just twice in an evening but still, that's too much focus on death.
Still kinda interesting though. I didn't even know that being a barista is an interesting job.
Legs still aching.
Found a replacement but not sure if she's good enough. She used to use the bigger industrial sewing machines so it will take some time to know if she can use our smaller one.
03 June 2014
Booking a 4-night trip to Seoul for the near future and realized that it's really not worth the money to go for fare classes that give me club miles or sectors. Seriously, the price difference is S$600 here between Malaysian Airline tickets that give me nothing ($1000+) and Cathay Pacific tickets that give me miles and sectors at 100% rate ($1600+). Even if I compare with Malaysian Airlines' normal fare, the difference is still over $200.
Nope.
Ended up booking on Expedia a 5D4N trip to Seoul at ibis Ambassador Seoul Myeongdong. Surprisingly cheap this time, the hotel. Must be luck because it's even cheaper than any of the Skypark hotels at Myeongdong, and I was actually thinking about trying out Skypark III this time.
This trip is going to be tough because I will be going out mainly at night. No choice but to screw up my body clock for money.
The new worker doesn't really know how to use our larger sewing machine but is willing to learn. Now we've got to see if she can do it professionally by the end of the month. Apparently she's used to smaller ones at home, not big ones.
I fear Azura now.
I think I have to either finish my backlog tomorrow or go for a hike. Maybe both. The hike will be a simple one along the park connectors. Maybe go all the way up north to Bukit Timah. Let's see if I can finish the work by noon.
Water bag's filled up, backpack is ready, snack bar from combat ration still in backpack! All prepared for a long walk!
Tuesday, 27 May 2014
Rant 1196 / Il Dolce Far Niente
22 May 2014
The more I think about it, the easier it is for me to just play around. The temptation is there and the theory looks plausible. I have minimal online presence and I am always vague about what I do. Everyone I know is aware that I talk to a lot of people.
Multiple girlfriends? Looks easy.
No, I won't do it when things get serious, but that's what I said about fooling around a few days ago, yet here I am thinking about it.
Maybe I'll consider this sort of thing if I break up with the first one.
Today I finally went ahead and told a girl off (gently) for this weird attitude she's been giving me. She was one of my failures, the one that ended when she told me I was too young for her.
Yet for some reason, after our conversation died, she tried to resurrect the chat twice.
We don't click.
Yet even though she seems to be trying to talk to me, her replies tend to be short and cold. In other words, I have no idea what she's doing. If it was not fun to talk to me, why bother coming back? If our conversations were enjoyable, why did she keep replying with just "Yup," or "Nope,"?
Stop wasting my time! I have more interested girls to fret over!
And studies.
So this morning, in reply to the last "Nope" she sent last night, I said that I had no idea why she even tried to talk to me when her numerous single-syllable replies implied boredom.
Enough is enough; stop dragging this. Even though she had friendzoned me, she's got to show more interest for us to be friends at all! Otherwise, we're just acquaintances.
24 May 2014
All of a sudden she had plenty to say, sending me practically a wall of text to explain, ending with a "you're too sensitive" remark.
Used to be that I'd believe that, but the last time someone said I was too sensitive, I had accused her of trying to promote some product and she turned out to be involved in some MLM nonsense.
In any case, I've got nothing better to do now. Just going to treat her like a guy.
I know I'm not smart but that is no reason for me not to act as if I know what I'm doing.
Apparently I display some signs of narcissistic personality disorder. However, after reading up on it more, it's probably just a false alarm. Lack of empathy? What?
But I'm probably more narcissistic than most regardless. Just look at the number of "I" that I use in this blog. I just can't help it!
26 May 2014
So I have a week to decide if I want to take up probably the most suitable job in the company - the IT management job.
It's crazy since I don't actually know much about the IT; the closest thing was the semester of C I took years ago in NTU. However, there really aren't that many low-level jobs available and I really want to take that first step, so the only option here is to learn it immediately.
I mean, compared to the other job they have, which is to find someone I can really trust who can do sales and travels often enough to certain countries, learning IT stuff is ridiculously easy.
Did something really rash today.
But it's so cool!
100% wool coat from Maison Martin Margiela. Hopefully it lasts because I don't foresee myself wearing it often in the near future. Maybe just wear it to Seoul.
Not exactly a blazer but neither is it an overcoat, so I'll just treat it as a winter jacket.
27th May 2014
After days of trying to avoid the truth, I finally mustered the courage to step onto the weighing scale...
87.5kg?!?!?! My best guess is that I lost fats and gained muscle mass during my reservist training, then lost muscle mass since then.
But probably leg muscles mostly since I haven't been training them. Instead, I've been training my arms since they improved the most after the field camp. Now I can almost do a chinup, and the only issue is the first half where I go from straightened arms to 90 degrees.
And when I do pushups, I have so my loose skin on my abdomen that it's gross. Seriously, it looks like I have a huge pair of testicles instead of a belly when I'm almost touching the floor.
My bro and his wife invited me to dinner on an unconfirmed date with her close friends. Looks like someone wants to play matchmaker. Didn't reject it but can't confirm until I know the date. There are other things going on in my life after all.
The more I think about it, the easier it is for me to just play around. The temptation is there and the theory looks plausible. I have minimal online presence and I am always vague about what I do. Everyone I know is aware that I talk to a lot of people.
Multiple girlfriends? Looks easy.
No, I won't do it when things get serious, but that's what I said about fooling around a few days ago, yet here I am thinking about it.
Maybe I'll consider this sort of thing if I break up with the first one.
Today I finally went ahead and told a girl off (gently) for this weird attitude she's been giving me. She was one of my failures, the one that ended when she told me I was too young for her.
Yet for some reason, after our conversation died, she tried to resurrect the chat twice.
We don't click.
Yet even though she seems to be trying to talk to me, her replies tend to be short and cold. In other words, I have no idea what she's doing. If it was not fun to talk to me, why bother coming back? If our conversations were enjoyable, why did she keep replying with just "Yup," or "Nope,"?
Stop wasting my time! I have more interested girls to fret over!
And studies.
So this morning, in reply to the last "Nope" she sent last night, I said that I had no idea why she even tried to talk to me when her numerous single-syllable replies implied boredom.
Enough is enough; stop dragging this. Even though she had friendzoned me, she's got to show more interest for us to be friends at all! Otherwise, we're just acquaintances.
24 May 2014
All of a sudden she had plenty to say, sending me practically a wall of text to explain, ending with a "you're too sensitive" remark.
Used to be that I'd believe that, but the last time someone said I was too sensitive, I had accused her of trying to promote some product and she turned out to be involved in some MLM nonsense.
In any case, I've got nothing better to do now. Just going to treat her like a guy.
I know I'm not smart but that is no reason for me not to act as if I know what I'm doing.
Apparently I display some signs of narcissistic personality disorder. However, after reading up on it more, it's probably just a false alarm. Lack of empathy? What?
But I'm probably more narcissistic than most regardless. Just look at the number of "I" that I use in this blog. I just can't help it!
26 May 2014
So I have a week to decide if I want to take up probably the most suitable job in the company - the IT management job.
It's crazy since I don't actually know much about the IT; the closest thing was the semester of C I took years ago in NTU. However, there really aren't that many low-level jobs available and I really want to take that first step, so the only option here is to learn it immediately.
I mean, compared to the other job they have, which is to find someone I can really trust who can do sales and travels often enough to certain countries, learning IT stuff is ridiculously easy.
Did something really rash today.
But it's so cool!
100% wool coat from Maison Martin Margiela. Hopefully it lasts because I don't foresee myself wearing it often in the near future. Maybe just wear it to Seoul.
Not exactly a blazer but neither is it an overcoat, so I'll just treat it as a winter jacket.
27th May 2014
After days of trying to avoid the truth, I finally mustered the courage to step onto the weighing scale...
87.5kg?!?!?! My best guess is that I lost fats and gained muscle mass during my reservist training, then lost muscle mass since then.
But probably leg muscles mostly since I haven't been training them. Instead, I've been training my arms since they improved the most after the field camp. Now I can almost do a chinup, and the only issue is the first half where I go from straightened arms to 90 degrees.
And when I do pushups, I have so my loose skin on my abdomen that it's gross. Seriously, it looks like I have a huge pair of testicles instead of a belly when I'm almost touching the floor.
My bro and his wife invited me to dinner on an unconfirmed date with her close friends. Looks like someone wants to play matchmaker. Didn't reject it but can't confirm until I know the date. There are other things going on in my life after all.
Tuesday, 20 May 2014
Rant 1195 / Strange Is The New Norm
25 April 2014
Yes! Another success! I mean another girl chats with me! And she's pretty cute too. Not sure about her personality yet but a success is a success.
This one is slightly different - I had forgotten to ask for her number on the 23rd, and I just couldn't let it go since it's so hard to find any girls below 30 in these clubs, so I emailed her my number via her profile page. Usually, this doesn't work, and this is actually the first time an email has worked for me.
Woot!
This may be good but I must not expect much here. Cute fresh grad. She's going to attract a lot of guys for sure, regardless of her personality.
And today I got some horrible news - my elder staff is quitting to take care of her grandchildren. She's the only one who can handle the sewing machine, so this is really bad news for me. First thing is to ask the other staff if the friends she mentioned have any ability in sewing. Second is to push all the admin work that the elder one used to do to her. Third is to persuade her to be willing to stay back slightly longer if the transporter is late, which he is sometimes during our peak seasons.
As for myself, I will have to go back more frequently to make sure the new employee is doing ok.
C'est la vie.
26th April 2014
Spent the morning exercising before going to my bro's gf's home to 过大礼. Turned out to be nothing. All we did was bring some pastries over and the parents gave us some stuff in return. Dowry I think. Since we had no parents and we don't give a damn about the dowry, we had to bring back some tubs and some of the pastries.
After that, I was free. Pretty awesome day chatting with two ladies. The new girl, I had already asked to join me for flamenco tomorrow but I don't believe she will come. Doesn't matter, if it doesn't work out, I move on as usual.
Brains and beauty. Just young and lost. Still unsure about her. She seems to be warming up to me pretty quickly but I can't tell yet what kind of person she is. NUS fresh grad confused about what career to pick. From China too, but I don't mind since she's been here for a while.
28th April 2014
Met the cutest and most bubbly girl so far during the dance workshop but didn't manage to talk to her because she left immediately after it was over. Sucked.
Couldn't get her out of my mind; she made every single girls I've encountered in the last few months look plain.
The worst thing is that since we never got to chat, there was no opportunity to get her number. Letting go of someone like this just like that feels bad.
Hence there is that possibility that this will be one of those people you really like but will only meet once and never again.
C'est la vie?
What is this shit?
Although my detective skills and google-fu have led me to her facebook account, this is information that is useless by itself, unless I discover what she likes and fake a coincidental encounter. Wow, I bet girls would think this is creepy! Why am I even thinking this?
Is she really that fantastic?
I couldn't get her out of my mind the entire day and I'm blogging about her now at 8am the following day, so... maybe.
Yet according to the FB page she's the artsy type and very, very outgoing. Probably way younger than me too.
The best normal thing I can do is attend the final workshop and hope she comes again.
Or I could PM her on FB and say that it wasn't too hard to find her there after seeing her name on the instructor's website. Would that be creepy or is that just my emotions talking?
Am I just being shallow? I know I'm usually quite shallow but is this purely shallowness?
Or maybe I'm just crazy for bubbly girls.
Tentatively, I will PM her just that, but I MUST give it a few days. Let's see if I cool down enough to think clearly by Wednesday. She really was that attractive!
I don't want to simply give up on girls like that.
Or I can see if she comes for the next workshop. If she does, I'll ask. Otherwise, I'll PM her saying that I checked the instructor's website out of an interest in her classes and happened to see her name.
Not sure if I'm patient enough for the latter though.
29th April 2014
Ok, the fresh grad is distracting me enough that I don't think of her that much anymore. I'll just wait till this Sunday and ask for her number if she's attending the workshop again. Otherwise, I may message her.
The grad girl, just like most of the other girls, needs time to warm up. A little on the pessimistic side though easy enough to get her to be more positive, though she needs regular reminders.
Young, idealistic and disappointed that reality falls short of her expectations after graduation, she's not looking to settle down so this could be good if we really can click.
I think I'm just being shallow here, but practice is practice. I need to practce chatting with the ladies, seriously. At this point, I have yet to ask a girl out for an actual date. How do I even approach this topic?
Ok, I've confirmed that masturbating daily is bad. It makes me a terrible conversationalist by making my mind very sluggish. No wonder married couples only have sex 2-3 times a week. How can they operate at work if they do it whenever they can?
This is going to suck but I will need to bring my old Nokia N8 phone to camp with me for internet access for my iPad.
It all began with the realization that I can no longer rely on the 3G0-USB-dongle-cum-mobile-router combination to get 3G for all my devices since I no longer carry a bag every time I go out. The last time I tried, I bent it too much while it was inside my pocket and broke something inside.
This means I need to use a phone for this and I'm ordering a Lenovo P780 to serve this function. This phone, though not sold by any retailer in Singapore, has an insanely huge battery (40000mAh) and is dual-SIM. Browsing the web and messaging normally will get a user 30 hours of usage!
The catch is that its OS is badly optimized and doesn't have Gorilla Glass, so maybe that's why Lenovo didn't bother to market it here.
I've ordered it for less than S$320 on Qoo10 and it's going to take two weeks to get here. By then, I'll be almost done with reservist training that's starting this week. Hence during the training, I need an alternative makeshift setup to get 3G for all my stuff.
The problem now is that N8 can only create an ad-hoc network with an app, and the Windows OS of my Lumia 520 doesn't work with such a network. I can put the 3G data SIM in the Lumia but I don't want the hassle of moving stuff around and losing Whatsapp conversations, so I'm going to use the expensive 3G just for these two weeks.
As for the N8, I'll use it for my iPad which can work with such a network.
After that, I'll have the new phone that will be using both the data SIM and the N8's, and I'll finally retire the N8.
I don't think the grad girl is interested. Either that or she's more introverted than she thinks she is. It's taking quite a bit of effort to get her to start chatting, and although she seems happy enough when we talk, she ends our conversations and never resumes any.
Time to move on.
19th May 2014
Today I embark on yet another strange journey in life, the second so far. Before, it was merely the taking over of a mature business. This time, the risks are far greater than what I've ever expected myself to take.
There is a great chance that all my effort in this venture will yield not a single dollar.
Exploring new fields isn't a new field anymore.
By this point, it is undeniable that I'm a gambler now.
It is strange how such opportunities just suddenly appear out of nowhere. Never saw either of them coming before they hit me, and I've always said yes so far. Wonder if they were wise decisions, but I'll never know till I summarise my life some day.
20th May 2014
As for girls, I've stopped searching for new choices since just before my ICT a fortnight ago. Right now, I am in the dilemma I expected to be in right from the beginning - two very nice girls who seem ready for long-term relationships now like me.
The chances of this happening were not high to me before, but here I am, not knowing who to choose.
One won't be back till mid-June, while the other does not live in Singapore. The former is more of an unknown but is very ready to go on a date when she returns; the latter is probably ready for marriage already. I'm not even exaggerating about the second girl - I have had the approval of her parents and several relatives for months now. Apparently they praise me all the time in front of her, and she always asked me when I would fly over.
The biggest issue, IMO, is the fact that I am a Chinese (Chinese in race) businessman. As a businessman in this part of the world, it is inevitable that I will not be 100% faithful to whoever I marry. If I am to entertain clients, there are things I have to do to fit in, and this is a fact that the girl I end up marrying must accept.
The first girl, whom I currently like slightly more, seems to be of the idealistic opinion that her boyfriend must never cheat on her. The second girl is extremely close to the wife of my banker cousin, and he thinks that she is the sort who will accept anything just like her cousin and probably already knows enough about his personal life from his wife.
Now that I've put it this way, the second girl does seem to be better wife material. However, the first girl may accept it once I explain it to her what I expect to do in my future if I am to make more than the pittance I do now.
Simplest solution here is to wait, date the first girl a few times, then talk about this. But then again, I will never know for sure if she will be ok with it forever.
And to clarify, the first girl is the grad girl I mentioned last month earlier in this post, while the second is the girl I did the bungee-jump with at Auckland.
Funny how things turned out when this cousin tried to be my wingman for an evening. None of the girls at the wedding were viable options - those who were still single were so for good reasons. The final result of that evening was the contact of a KTV hostess at some shitty bar. It was strange to find a decent girl at the place like that, but currently in my life, strange is the new norm.
We found her to be decent despite her job for a few reasons.
First, when we shook hands, her hands were cold.
Second, she was quiet and shy like myself. The only time I touched her was during the handshake.
Third, she told me she worked there only because the boss didn't force them to do things they didn't want to.
Fourth, she refused the tip from my cousin even when he doubled the S$20 to S$40. That was when he suggested that she should give me her number.
I have doubts - on the Internet, there are tales of such girls beguiling men with their sob stories. According to my wingman, she was good for a fling and I agree, but
1) I am not looking for flings.
2) She may be lying all along and one day may convince me.
3) If she's really honest, that's even less reason to do this to her.
So I stopped talking to her after a few words on WeChat. Net result of that evening: absolutely nothing but poor opinions of the girls at the wedding.
Speaking of the wedding, my impromptu speeches were so different in quality. I hadn't had time to prepare during my reservist training so I googled a bit before I boarded the minibus and thought it up on the way there.
It seems that my English speech was very good but my Cantonese one was embarassing. Woot! At least one was good given the amount of preparation that went into them.
I have guts? What does it mean to have guts? If having guts means the willingness to do what is necessary, then yes I do have them. Yet if it is something I have to do regardless, why am I considered to be brave to do it? I am merely doing whatever needs to be done, that's all.
Oh, this isn't good. A third girl is asking me out on a date. Got to stop all these now. A tough decision between two girls is hard enough.
Yes! Another success! I mean another girl chats with me! And she's pretty cute too. Not sure about her personality yet but a success is a success.
This one is slightly different - I had forgotten to ask for her number on the 23rd, and I just couldn't let it go since it's so hard to find any girls below 30 in these clubs, so I emailed her my number via her profile page. Usually, this doesn't work, and this is actually the first time an email has worked for me.
Woot!
This may be good but I must not expect much here. Cute fresh grad. She's going to attract a lot of guys for sure, regardless of her personality.
And today I got some horrible news - my elder staff is quitting to take care of her grandchildren. She's the only one who can handle the sewing machine, so this is really bad news for me. First thing is to ask the other staff if the friends she mentioned have any ability in sewing. Second is to push all the admin work that the elder one used to do to her. Third is to persuade her to be willing to stay back slightly longer if the transporter is late, which he is sometimes during our peak seasons.
As for myself, I will have to go back more frequently to make sure the new employee is doing ok.
C'est la vie.
26th April 2014
Spent the morning exercising before going to my bro's gf's home to 过大礼. Turned out to be nothing. All we did was bring some pastries over and the parents gave us some stuff in return. Dowry I think. Since we had no parents and we don't give a damn about the dowry, we had to bring back some tubs and some of the pastries.
After that, I was free. Pretty awesome day chatting with two ladies. The new girl, I had already asked to join me for flamenco tomorrow but I don't believe she will come. Doesn't matter, if it doesn't work out, I move on as usual.
Brains and beauty. Just young and lost. Still unsure about her. She seems to be warming up to me pretty quickly but I can't tell yet what kind of person she is. NUS fresh grad confused about what career to pick. From China too, but I don't mind since she's been here for a while.
28th April 2014
Met the cutest and most bubbly girl so far during the dance workshop but didn't manage to talk to her because she left immediately after it was over. Sucked.
Couldn't get her out of my mind; she made every single girls I've encountered in the last few months look plain.
The worst thing is that since we never got to chat, there was no opportunity to get her number. Letting go of someone like this just like that feels bad.
Hence there is that possibility that this will be one of those people you really like but will only meet once and never again.
C'est la vie?
What is this shit?
Although my detective skills and google-fu have led me to her facebook account, this is information that is useless by itself, unless I discover what she likes and fake a coincidental encounter. Wow, I bet girls would think this is creepy! Why am I even thinking this?
Is she really that fantastic?
I couldn't get her out of my mind the entire day and I'm blogging about her now at 8am the following day, so... maybe.
Yet according to the FB page she's the artsy type and very, very outgoing. Probably way younger than me too.
The best normal thing I can do is attend the final workshop and hope she comes again.
Or I could PM her on FB and say that it wasn't too hard to find her there after seeing her name on the instructor's website. Would that be creepy or is that just my emotions talking?
Am I just being shallow? I know I'm usually quite shallow but is this purely shallowness?
Or maybe I'm just crazy for bubbly girls.
Tentatively, I will PM her just that, but I MUST give it a few days. Let's see if I cool down enough to think clearly by Wednesday. She really was that attractive!
I don't want to simply give up on girls like that.
Or I can see if she comes for the next workshop. If she does, I'll ask. Otherwise, I'll PM her saying that I checked the instructor's website out of an interest in her classes and happened to see her name.
Not sure if I'm patient enough for the latter though.
29th April 2014
Ok, the fresh grad is distracting me enough that I don't think of her that much anymore. I'll just wait till this Sunday and ask for her number if she's attending the workshop again. Otherwise, I may message her.
The grad girl, just like most of the other girls, needs time to warm up. A little on the pessimistic side though easy enough to get her to be more positive, though she needs regular reminders.
Young, idealistic and disappointed that reality falls short of her expectations after graduation, she's not looking to settle down so this could be good if we really can click.
I think I'm just being shallow here, but practice is practice. I need to practce chatting with the ladies, seriously. At this point, I have yet to ask a girl out for an actual date. How do I even approach this topic?
Ok, I've confirmed that masturbating daily is bad. It makes me a terrible conversationalist by making my mind very sluggish. No wonder married couples only have sex 2-3 times a week. How can they operate at work if they do it whenever they can?
This is going to suck but I will need to bring my old Nokia N8 phone to camp with me for internet access for my iPad.
It all began with the realization that I can no longer rely on the 3G0-USB-dongle-cum-mobile-router combination to get 3G for all my devices since I no longer carry a bag every time I go out. The last time I tried, I bent it too much while it was inside my pocket and broke something inside.
This means I need to use a phone for this and I'm ordering a Lenovo P780 to serve this function. This phone, though not sold by any retailer in Singapore, has an insanely huge battery (40000mAh) and is dual-SIM. Browsing the web and messaging normally will get a user 30 hours of usage!
The catch is that its OS is badly optimized and doesn't have Gorilla Glass, so maybe that's why Lenovo didn't bother to market it here.
I've ordered it for less than S$320 on Qoo10 and it's going to take two weeks to get here. By then, I'll be almost done with reservist training that's starting this week. Hence during the training, I need an alternative makeshift setup to get 3G for all my stuff.
The problem now is that N8 can only create an ad-hoc network with an app, and the Windows OS of my Lumia 520 doesn't work with such a network. I can put the 3G data SIM in the Lumia but I don't want the hassle of moving stuff around and losing Whatsapp conversations, so I'm going to use the expensive 3G just for these two weeks.
As for the N8, I'll use it for my iPad which can work with such a network.
After that, I'll have the new phone that will be using both the data SIM and the N8's, and I'll finally retire the N8.
I don't think the grad girl is interested. Either that or she's more introverted than she thinks she is. It's taking quite a bit of effort to get her to start chatting, and although she seems happy enough when we talk, she ends our conversations and never resumes any.
Time to move on.
19th May 2014
Today I embark on yet another strange journey in life, the second so far. Before, it was merely the taking over of a mature business. This time, the risks are far greater than what I've ever expected myself to take.
There is a great chance that all my effort in this venture will yield not a single dollar.
Exploring new fields isn't a new field anymore.
By this point, it is undeniable that I'm a gambler now.
It is strange how such opportunities just suddenly appear out of nowhere. Never saw either of them coming before they hit me, and I've always said yes so far. Wonder if they were wise decisions, but I'll never know till I summarise my life some day.
20th May 2014
As for girls, I've stopped searching for new choices since just before my ICT a fortnight ago. Right now, I am in the dilemma I expected to be in right from the beginning - two very nice girls who seem ready for long-term relationships now like me.
The chances of this happening were not high to me before, but here I am, not knowing who to choose.
One won't be back till mid-June, while the other does not live in Singapore. The former is more of an unknown but is very ready to go on a date when she returns; the latter is probably ready for marriage already. I'm not even exaggerating about the second girl - I have had the approval of her parents and several relatives for months now. Apparently they praise me all the time in front of her, and she always asked me when I would fly over.
The biggest issue, IMO, is the fact that I am a Chinese (Chinese in race) businessman. As a businessman in this part of the world, it is inevitable that I will not be 100% faithful to whoever I marry. If I am to entertain clients, there are things I have to do to fit in, and this is a fact that the girl I end up marrying must accept.
The first girl, whom I currently like slightly more, seems to be of the idealistic opinion that her boyfriend must never cheat on her. The second girl is extremely close to the wife of my banker cousin, and he thinks that she is the sort who will accept anything just like her cousin and probably already knows enough about his personal life from his wife.
Now that I've put it this way, the second girl does seem to be better wife material. However, the first girl may accept it once I explain it to her what I expect to do in my future if I am to make more than the pittance I do now.
Simplest solution here is to wait, date the first girl a few times, then talk about this. But then again, I will never know for sure if she will be ok with it forever.
And to clarify, the first girl is the grad girl I mentioned last month earlier in this post, while the second is the girl I did the bungee-jump with at Auckland.
Funny how things turned out when this cousin tried to be my wingman for an evening. None of the girls at the wedding were viable options - those who were still single were so for good reasons. The final result of that evening was the contact of a KTV hostess at some shitty bar. It was strange to find a decent girl at the place like that, but currently in my life, strange is the new norm.
We found her to be decent despite her job for a few reasons.
First, when we shook hands, her hands were cold.
Second, she was quiet and shy like myself. The only time I touched her was during the handshake.
Third, she told me she worked there only because the boss didn't force them to do things they didn't want to.
Fourth, she refused the tip from my cousin even when he doubled the S$20 to S$40. That was when he suggested that she should give me her number.
I have doubts - on the Internet, there are tales of such girls beguiling men with their sob stories. According to my wingman, she was good for a fling and I agree, but
1) I am not looking for flings.
2) She may be lying all along and one day may convince me.
3) If she's really honest, that's even less reason to do this to her.
So I stopped talking to her after a few words on WeChat. Net result of that evening: absolutely nothing but poor opinions of the girls at the wedding.
Speaking of the wedding, my impromptu speeches were so different in quality. I hadn't had time to prepare during my reservist training so I googled a bit before I boarded the minibus and thought it up on the way there.
It seems that my English speech was very good but my Cantonese one was embarassing. Woot! At least one was good given the amount of preparation that went into them.
I have guts? What does it mean to have guts? If having guts means the willingness to do what is necessary, then yes I do have them. Yet if it is something I have to do regardless, why am I considered to be brave to do it? I am merely doing whatever needs to be done, that's all.
Oh, this isn't good. A third girl is asking me out on a date. Got to stop all these now. A tough decision between two girls is hard enough.
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